Lila- You are so great! Thanks to all of you great people that signed my guestbook! Its snowing so badly still that I can barely see off the balcony. Hey, you signed my guestbook and I didn't think you had a page until under deeper inspection, I noticed you put that echopunk is your diary. LOL, I read your last post in my guestbook probably 2 seconds after you left it! She then told me that he wanted to talk to her about opening a plant in another state. I wanted to ask if I was the one who should be hearing this and not my mother, perhaps? I had so much I wanted to say, but what I wanted to say would have caused such a scene in the middle of the restaurant that it would have risen above the din of the college football and baseball and basketball games. Calling people in the evening, asking them questions about cheese or TV Shows and even getting paid quite well for that seems appealing to me. As much as I dislike my job and am annoyed by the store, the job and the costumers, I am quite proud having a job in this certain street. Yesterday evening was a concert of a friend, but I couldnt really enjoy it cause I was annoyed from work and felt bad. I'm not happy with my life right now. The place where I work does this thing for the holidays every year, where they bring in a group of kids from an Orphanage in Mexico, and the kids stay at the resort all weekend, and do all sorts of fun things, and get lots of clothing and gifts and stuff. This is to prevent the leakage of answers. Again, I no longer have a car, so this is a pain elsewhere.

Lulu kept asking me where the angels were, and I told her that they were probably flapping around somewhere, up there with the fairies. Anyway, I didn't want to leave things so negative because most of the time I'm not that way. Granted, he did say that he didn't want to do too much on my first visit, that he wanted to work gradually so that he didn't put me in more pain. All I wanted to do was get passed the backstage door and dart to the band waiting room. Only come to find that not even a month and a half after the legal papers went through he's still issuing emotional blows. I remembered the conversation my mom and I had back in July when Dad told me they were going through with the divorce. At the end of the group session, one of the women whose daughter had clearly come through, approached me. After all the shit he had been through and was still facing he was more concerned about my stupid knee than about himself. Then he said something about being okay with the Yankees losing, blah blah. Sorry about the mix-up darling. I hear lots and lots of bird sounds when the chicks hatch.... then they're off.... and I don't think about them again until the next year. But I do think that it's weird that there was an accident, lots of alcohol, Colin, me and him hugging, and sobbing and Calling Out all in both my dream and the situation today in both of them... think God is reaching out to me? I laid down on the sofa in the family room and meditated on my annoyances and looked at the ceiling.

I have a quick message..... when I click on certain entries on my archives page, it won't let me read it, it goes to a different one. I had an amazing time, even though I enjoyed it in a completely different way from how I thought I might, when I thought I might enjoy it at all, which I didn't think I really would. I don't plan on spending much time at LaVern's. I've really enjoyed spending time with Sean. I just don't know when to give up and when I fall hard, I really fall hard. Which I really don't want to do.

I think this was way better than having it all due at the same time, even though now I have less than a week to do one of the projects. I don't know if it was out of resentment for the fact I couldn't have him, or it was someone telling me I shouldn't, I couldn't have him. Couldn't concentrate on my schoolwork.. I am almost at the point where, when someone wrongs me in some way, I can trust myself to respond appropriately. I make myself available when I can. Signing off for the immediate future and I don't know exactly when I'll be back.

Its really weird ya know? I have been wanting to do this since I was really little. It really is god-forsaken you know. He is really cute, and I dont want him to just go away and possibly get hit by a car. It is really amusing. Can't be bothered typing much but this is really cute and 1 of the 2 part Pin Up Toons series. If this is your username and you're wondering how to make your profile, just click here. I thought I'd explore the downside... and what I found in doing this is that there were all these interesting rhythms... very expressive, very speakable... full of ideas, and I found actually that this mysterious kind of narrative would emerge from it. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real. I hope this helps you know where I stand.. and I am sorry if I let you know too much-but, I think you should know, and I would hope to think that you deserve to know this too. Why should you assume you are going to a good place? Walking from the stall, to the sink, to the door after you have just stunk up the bathroom.. The mother reminded me of Kim Hill and the daughter reminded me of Rose Byrne crossed with my friend Mandy and it was just all deliciously watery and sad. After lunch, we had about 2 and a half hours until the baseball game, so we were trying to figure out what to do.

We hardly paused for breath! Problem: we don't want them to know we are impostors or they might kick us out. I don't know she's going to like me when she comes back.. I don't know what I'll be feeling tomorrow night at this time, all alone with no cable and no gas and no internet access, but thats okay. Let me mention that I actually spent Valentines night hanging out at my moms house and surfing around on a prehistoric version of the internet we all know and love. My sister finds this out, tracks down this guy via the Internet and it turns out he's earning a decent living for himself as a photographer. Yesterday for my Lady Lunch, I made a turkey and provolone sandwich with cucumbers on pumpernickel bread lathered with the Wasabi Mustard and a side of cold red seedless grapes? I'd settle for just being a Lady, and then I'll work on the lunches part. I'd rather fucking give them back the $2,000 and take it out of my RRSP and deal with the government at the end of the year than hear another lecture from her. Went to the fair yesterday with Jessica, Woody, Matt, some person whose name i don't remember.

It was a private party, invite only, so we couldn't bring friends - we realized we'd just have to - gasp - mingle. Besides, it's kind of late to bring it up. I rolled over and kind of made a grunting noise and went back to sleep. Now most of that is out in my car, and I'll have to bring it in tomorrow.

A day spent waiting out the rain at Bell lodge proved futile. The excitement was just pouring out of me... We put her to work, carrying props and handing out papers. Did I ever tell you that when we were growing up, I thought of myself as strawberry and you as cherry?

Like I said, complete shut down. I walked in on her while she was dancing in the game room our first night here. Last night was nice and boring-Mary and Daniel went out. On my way back from my last class, I went to cut through the SAC, and I saw KIM from work in there! He had been through hell and back. And I do like the phrase, I was just poking you to see what you'd do... What Kind Of Star Wars Fan Are You? I'll have to see what your new art is based on, and I hope you'll post your finished piece to your diary, when it's ready! I think your latest layout is splendid! Who I think you were in your past life: A mother of many beautiful children that changed the world. So if you have nothing to do this weekend..... make your way out to Astoria.... and make it worth my while to open!!! And by the way, your plan sounds great! Then Patty went and told Nick that if he doesn't stop hangin out with Travis, he's gonna be gone.

He's not a very stable kid himself. Some kid from SoCal wanting to get into music. Thank you for taking the time to write us. Aww, thank you! Thank you, sweetie!! You get snow, right?! Sweet Dreams when sleep finds you... Do you see that picture up there?! You know, that salty watery stuff they apparently have on our three coasts. But you have to know my sister.