The worst gift is the one I don't get. The one bright point is that these countries like Americans as people. But don't waste your breath telling that to the leaders of my party today. God forbid that I'm the type of woman a man would want to really get to know, take out, and maybe, just maybe, start to love or something like that?!?! Cause I really dont want to hear about love. I mean the whole point of this is - I can't see whats going to happen next.. and that scares me, I press my lips onto this mirror we call life and blow till my cheeks expand but I go nowhere, and neither does my breath. That scares me to no end. And I dont know how Im going to get out of this Lynn situation. I do not know where my life is going. I'm sorry, I know that I love her and that I'm glad to see her, that I was excited for her to get here. I asked her to go. At that point, he asked her if she wanted him to give it to her or if she wanted to take it herself. I don't have any desire to destroy him like that; I don't hate anybody in this world. It is their fault that Im like this. I know this sounds corny, but I feel like all this happened for a reason.