Alcohal, it numbs the mind. His mind tumbled into the sticky tar pit of hatred and rage that had almost drowned him. It won't be for another at least 2 weeks for the t-shirt to come. I'm glad you requested; I got to see a whole different perspective from the life of another and realized I'm not the only one who's psychotic. I think you should make the extras allllll one page and then all of the extra links will be gone and your layout will look much better. The one time I need to get in and I cant. The challenge of coming up with a subject to write about and the practice writing causes you to start noticing things in your day that you would not usually notice. I want to talk about some things i would like to do with mmfx. Or would you just let him have his space and share the Lonely Hill comfortably as I think you want him to do for you? If you had the power and ability to do one thing, you can have access to every super power in history or ledgend; what would you do?

I wanted to know where he had grown up and what his childhood had been like. I just feel like you don't appreciate yourself, so why should I? If you don't know, you can't fix it. Me: and I don't know what's going to happen when I go to Austin, but at least we're taking risks and trying to do things to improve our lives. I'd like to know where he gets his readings from because they're all a bit warped if you ask me. Im not sure how Im going to handle this, but I do know Im happier now than Ive been in a long time. I've known myself to check diaries several times a day without noticing and it feels like it's been ages since there was last an entry. I imagined him walking over to me and dropping down to his knees, between my legs, and had I been wearing a skirt, pulling it up and burying his mouth on my bare cunt. And what briefly thought up fantasy in the produce isle would be complete without him using some of those vegetables to fuck me? I thought of the time my parents came to visit me in Hawaii, and how much she loved it there. I am still trying to get my brain and spirit around all the stuff I encountered there. Stocklos and Andrew were only there for one of the nights I was. In past years it was all a fairly big production, there was enough drama in one night to satiate me now for an entire week, and plenty of grab ass and good old fashion fun.

John and Aaron headed out. I held my tongue about it though.... because I know from experience that people have to change when they are ready to change.... and not one minute before. But I just think about what dastardly disease is he going to have to deal with next? I'm going to be successful because I'm not starting a family until after I'm done school and after I'm married and I know that me and my husband are stable. It's sort of annoying that I can't do my best on this essay just because it's a dumb thing to write about...

I looked at a used Saturn yesterday. My hips kind of dont fit where they used to! My dog kept growling at me because he thought my diaphragm was trying to escape my body and stick to his face like some kind of alien from... I was very good at not throwing myself into a tizzy, trying to find every last item to sell in my home.

And how should I begin? I just feel like you don't appreciate yourself, so why should I? I don't know why.. So I why do I have such a hard time believing what they are saying to me? I still don't know anymore, you don't talk to me. I don't know what I'll be feeling tomorrow night at this time, all alone with no cable and no gas and no internet access, but thats okay. I don't know how it'll work out between us, but I do know that things will be okay. It meant a lot to me that she said that because it really shows that I am feeling better, and that's always a good thing. And then getting her to arrange a time with Lynn, so that I can tell her just with me and Tal there. She said the woman who took my reservation on the phone wrote my status by my name, and then she made reference to her knowledge that I was involved in a neighborhood business.

I also wanted to experience the fun, hypo, crazy part of drinking alcohol, when you have like no control over your body and you just go crazy like singing songs or something, but that never happened, I just got sick. I had so much I wanted to say, but what I wanted to say would have caused such a scene in the middle of the restaurant that it would have risen above the din of the college football and baseball and basketball games. I was sick all of fall break, as luck will have it. I wanted to do something intensely meaningful with my life, and creating an edifice of inspiring beauty was the best I could think of at the time. Does this mean that you are done with diaryland? I gave them fair warning that this would be difficult for me. And after Im suitably slickered Im calling Alex and Tias and playing pool with them.. So, after that trip, we both put in only 3 days back at the daily grind and then we were on an airplane to Seattle, WA! It worked out great because I also have a friend that lives in Seattle, so we went for 5 days. Which, I've never really done because I've kept going back to visit people that I know there. And somehow, regardless of how crazy it all seemed to the people who came into contact with him, it certainly made them smile. How long did it take you to come up with that? I have a picture of me hugging myself and looking insanely happy so that when I am unhappy with myself i can look at the picture and remember that I can hug myself. God forbid that I'm the type of woman a man would want to really get to know, take out, and maybe, just maybe, start to love or something like that?!?! I realized that it's not worth saying unless you really mean it or if you feel the other person feels the same way and even so, I hold back.

Mainly because my mother says mhmm, over my words, even if its in response to a question shes only just asked me, in that way that lets you know without a doubt she has no intention of listening to you, ever, no matter what you say. I think he interpreted my shrug as that of indifference rather than a struggle to come to terms with my dramatic vexation and flabberghasted silence. I think she and I would honestly like to see him suffer for a little while and mull over the pain he caused us. I am betting that Chander told Dan and Howard that he was not going to give me a raise and that it was Dan's job to tell me. I really dont believe that it was him, but it looked just like him. I dont miss home nearly as much as I thought I would, and other than the worry that I may not be able to pay my tuition on time I am relaxed and at ease. And, if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave. It's cheap, and our audience deserves better than that. I feel as though Wurtzel takes the view on feminism that women should use their sexuality to their advantage. I think everyone should read this book, if for no other reason than to learn the values of being a good tipper. Long, but will hopefully make you think.

For others, it just feels like its absent. I missed hanging out with you before, we should just go for coffee sometime and chat. Suffice it to say that some things are getting worse, while others are staying the same and still others are getting better. Getting in touch with my inner bitch. At last I re-connected with the friend I was hanging with when I wrote that entry. Since I don't know any of them that well, PR decided I was a good unbiased listener and reasoner. I don't know what I'll be feeling tomorrow night at this time, all alone with no cable and no gas and no internet access, but thats okay. Q Mix of Smells like Teen Spirit and Bootylicious - High pitched gargling by Destiny's Child mixed in with rock. Now I read one and I go - Oh! After I came back from officer camp, I found a lot of shit out that jepordized one of my closest friendships, and how close we were. I've been to Officer Camp and back. I saw CC there and he really doesn't like Zach, or me hanging out with Zach. Oh, and camping with his fam was awesome. No one should dare to even think about being the Commander in Chief of this country if he doesn't believe with all his heart that our soldiers are liberators abroad and defenders of freedom at home.

Is animal suffering different from human suffering? He was not bewildered, of course, by the questions that needle my mind-the origin of evil, God's permission of an animal's or a child's suffering. It was still the supreme object of his life to see that I was happy. Am I supposed to confront the whole fucking group of people and tell them how I feel?? I've heard it said that even the best job can be rotten if you dont like the people you work with.... but I don't like people a whole lot anyways so it honestly doesnt matter that much to me. He's supposed to be like Luke and Dan and all of them. Let it be noted that the girl is so professional, and your dignity is so very respected that you'll never be embarrassed. And as much as I may hold a cigarette like a movie star, my delusions of grandeur had never been so expanded that I think I can have my ass cleaned like one, too. I saw this episode of Faking It, and they were trying to create a male model out of your basic... I can't really think of anything else that happened at the dance but it was definately the best dance that I have ever been to. January 12, 2002 - I think its a bunch of shit, but i'm willing to believe it.

His speech is full of them. So we pumped the fucking thing so full of jelly that it burst open, and then we served it to her. This kind of sounds inappropriate also, if you think about it hard enough. I fucking hate Travis right at this moment. I mean hey hey lets get a fucking life here, its gotten old...