OH my god. I've missed you... Would've been nice to show him the Island, though. I am not good with criticism, even though I try to be. I know that if I let myself slip, I'll take people I care about with me, and that's not what I want to do. Wow what i would have given to have had my gloves on that day. That's right, Friday May 28th at Jose Hogs at 8:30. You've got to understand that K has never slept with a guy, so she doesn't know the warning signs when calling a friend. I hope it doesn't rain, and that no big cold gusty winds come up. I'm also not eatin' properly and that doesn't help. Yep, wrong number and was I ever about to give the person calling a piece of my mind. The phone in the bedroom doesn't work right now so I would have to go into the other room to answer the phone and then it would probably be a wrong number after all of that. I have work today and I'm still gonna engrave our names into the heart at work. What the fuck did I do that was so wrong?

Well, we didnt say any of that mind you, I guess it was just a look of general malaise on our collective faces and since I, the normal harbinger of all things puppies, daisies and yellow cupcakes with icing and sprinkles, my forehead furrow is not the norm. And jeez liz if I can stop smoking then so can you, I have zero will power. Can true love survive a society's prejudices about those who have paid their debt to society? I hope I will. Who would you like to be, dream self or real self? Name 3 people in history, living or dead, you'd like to have lunch with? Those of you who know me well, know that I am the worst dental chicken..... so anything that will help me relax is a good thing! I know of people who were immediately affected by the attacks, but I myself am pretty far removed. Look around at the people who have real problems. I dont tend to experience any huge desires o seek people out, and when I do want contact with friends, sms or email seem reasonable enough tools. Just last week there was a particularly powerful episode of Law & Order: SVU that had a child murdered, smothered by her adopted mother, with a pillow it affected me in a similar way; tears, a sick sting in my belly. There was an agreement that they had a lopsided sort of friendship going on. Thanks to all of you great people that signed my guestbook!

We got there around 2:00 p. m. And I was exhausted from working 9 hours. I am still working on more guy-type prizes for the GKDVRD04. So neither is CSI: Miami, which would be a veritable smorgasbord of snark for me every week, because David Caruso? I am afraid I am not as good at regular reading as many of them are, that that sorta sucks, because by the time I comment on their stuff, weeks have usually gone by. I mean overall it was a good vacation, I got to hang out with my cousins CorCor and Kny and JB and Nato, but the other baby cousin that I have is driving me up a wall. And that's just trouble, because there's no discussion, there's just talking-overs and illogical conclusions and emotional blathering. Yesterday for my Lady Lunch, I made a turkey and provolone sandwich with cucumbers on pumpernickel bread lathered with the Wasabi Mustard and a side of cold red seedless grapes? I mean, I love my mom dearly, and this may sound mean-I don't intend it to be that way-but my mom is the type of person that doesn't usually have all the information and doesn't really care if she has all the information about something because she isn't trying to make up her own opinion. I was happy that Daniel's arthritis is beginning to allow him to play here and there. Doesn't mean I don't love me some Anne Rice, though. I only procrastinate with things I don't care about, and try to perfect the things that I am proud of. They're pretty intertwined, but I don't trust someone to stay with me, to not end a relationship, or to not want things that could damage the relationship. That just freaked me out for the rest of the time I was there so I had to put that in this journal so someone could feel the same way that I did when I found out, that person is fine though, they just walked away from the hospital with cuts and bruises which is something to praise God for cause it coulda been way worst then it turned out to be.

When I get on the plane I look around to find those that are at ease. Give me the chance, that one you promised to be mine, or has it vanished for all time? When I heard that I was horrified! Tell me again, I want to hear who broke my faith in all these years, who lays with you at night when I'm here all alone, remembering when I was your own. I work myself up and think, this time when I try I won't fail, I won't just not succeed, I will be dazzling and brilliant and wonderful and everything will then be honky dory. Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself. Who is your true self? And from her, I have learned so much, how to be outgoing, free-sprited, and my true self without caring if people don't like me for me. One square mile in New York county holds a staggering 66,490 people. Applying this variable gives us 729,534 males in New York County, where Harlem resides. This now gives us the number of males in the United States, aged 20-30 years, which is 20,436,627.

I'm in love with him. With him, I don't think I ever met or knew someone with whom I felt more compatible. In fact, I think I could honestly say that she was the complete opposite. I guess my first clue that this was headed towards doom was the fact he joined the Marine Corp a month after we got married. How much pain I was in, because of this one person. This seems like a good use of paper. I must say that there are very few people on earth who I'd rather look like more than that guy. And then getting her to arrange a time with Lynn, so that I can tell her just with me and Tal there. With all these lovely people that I have nothing to say to. That is the worst part of my pregnancy so far.

After much haranguing from my father, my sisters, brother, nieces and I begrudgingly agreed to sing carols and whatnot, in unison and harmony, at our h??ge Christmas party under the name, The Family Songsters. I'll write what time school ends and all, k? I chose the viola because in 6th grade, there was a day at school where we chose if we wanted to join the band or the orchestra. Suffice to say, there was a lot of jealousy and bitterness at the studio, and John got the worst of it. As they laid there and the movie came to an end, they began to talk about random things.

I went to Freebirds to burrito myself before I went back to Dallas. My kitty is so cute, she is awsome, I love her to death, she has been with me for like 9 years now, and I know people say that cats don't love or whatever but I feel that she loves me, like the baby she couldn't have, she is protective of me, and is so nice, I love mt cat, lot's. We went apartment hunting today and we found one, but not without suffering. I brought them in my escort stationwagon turbo to Campus where I finago'ed my way into using the multipurpose room at my apartment building. Anyway, instead of just focusing on the negative and flow from that, I'm going to say what happened today. I looked in the mirror today.

I'm kidding, it's only a little bad. Surveys - A couple fun little survey things that I took. And then getting her to arrange a time with Lynn, so that I can tell her just with me and Tal there. With aging, its not so much that your body is falling apart and your life is getting shorter, what hurts more is how the disappointments begin to accumulate. Would you rather have green body hair or skin that glows green in the dark? If anyone has an uncle that works at the Icehouse, we think that would be rocking awesome.

Her closeness felt amazing, but something kept nagging at me that I shouldnt be there with her. I was told i bird walk, it means like, talking about something, going off on a tangent and talking about something completely different, then going back to what i was talking about before like i havent been ranting about something else for the last 5 minutes. Mom quit her job, Trish tore lotsa ligaments in her leg, Laya just got out of surgery, Mom still hasn't told me the updatage about anything, and yeah. A complete 180 from last week and the week before, I think it has something to do with the fact I haven't seen/talked to Gus since last Tuesday. I look at my yard and there's a car in the middle of it. The next day I felt like depressed ass, wasn't in the mood for anything and then as soon as I got in the door at work, I got my ass chewed by my Sgt. I didn't think anything of it, but it did excite me just a little. Good times, good times, I love to talk about it even if it is saying the same things over and over again - I like to relive it.

And we bought them like hotcakes. Carlos wanted to mess around, and i was like ok, but then i said no. I think she and I would honestly like to see him suffer for a little while and mull over the pain he caused us. So I didnt think anything of him and yesterday I came to school and we were all lovey dovey and what not. January 11, 2002 - she really didnt think anything of it until i didnt come home right away. I think they instinctively know that. The thing is he never specified the date with me and I assumed since he didn't say anything it wasn't really conflicting with anything. Julian says bye Anthony says it too but Willus doenst say anything. I didn't think anything of it, but it did excite me just a little. If anyone asked me what I was up to or anything, I'd have had something to talk about. Then I ask him why he said something to Charles, and Allen but not me and he didnt say nothing. Then after that, I called Sara and we talked until about 11, then we both went to bed. Ok if it is Gods plan that his son should be crucified for the sins of the earth and all that crap, uh, doesnt it follow that the person who is going to be the catalyst in that scene is in fact doing what God wants??