I think I am retaining more fluid than I used to. I think that you might have to be a diaryland user to leave a note, so we'll have to keep our guestbooks for the non-diaryland peeps. I was hoping that I could get the link to work but I obviously screwed something up so I guess you'll have to cut and paste. Obviously my mom had a huge impact on my life; and of course not only by joining the class for lunch one day nearly fifteen years ago. That somehow the sheer force on my feelings for him could persuade him to love me as well. And to tie it all up, obviously I got over my lust for her and have realized that we are much better as friends than we would be as lovers. You know, because Id think that I was inherently more desirable then my close friends and if she were to choose them over me yeah, well.. Haven't you ever had FRIENDS? However, if ____ were to date any of my close friends, Richard, Nick, etc., Id have a SEVERE problem with that. If I were to hook up with Eve, hed be perfectly fine with that. Remember, when Fox News and administration officials such as Paul Wolfowitz were calling people Saddam Hussein sympathizers if you questioned the decision to invade Iraq. I call upon the people of the United States to observe this day with appropriate ceremonies and activities, including remembrance services and candlelight vigils. BUSH, President of the United States of America, do hereby proclaim September 11, 2003, as Patriot Day. So just an hour or so ago I suggested to my new roomie that we should hit the online phone directories and start calling random people in Oakland California, to ask them how it feels to be losers. I have handcuff's you can spend all day by my side while I walk around telling people about my new closet slave, I predict about 10 'what the hell' glares and three 'Get the fuck away from me's but people can surprise you right?

Great, huh? I'm doing great for a change. It is biologically impossible for a woman to get tired of her own baby. I Actually Made Fun Of People For Wanting To See It When The First One Came Out Shhhh.. It was actually very shocking. When the pictures and tapes of this boy came out, did he even say anything at all? It was working for a while but then he said something that made me mad and he started ignoring me. Is that another diary?

Sunday, B and I are going to try to shop for a futon cover, pampizan cushion, slipcover, and entertainment center. This site is intended solely for entertainment purposes. This site is intended solely for entertainment purposes. The creators of this site do not endorse or condone any activities described herein. Authority figures are not permitted to view this site, and must close their browser now. Everything on this site may not necessarily be true. Note to self: Get quieter mints. The fact that there is one and only one song I really don't like on just about every CD I own, it seems, and it is a lot of trouble to program a whole CD to just skip one song. Anyway, why don't guys come up and just starting to girls? Im not writing it down in my filofax and not writing in down in herenot numbers anyway.

You open them up and gently run your tongue over my still erect clit.... You take the head of your cock, and rub it over my clit..... and I start to thrust a little for you..... Once it's razor sharp, really wet it and rub it on any place prone to stank. It all happened so fast and I didn't know what to do. BAD - since they're both my close friends and if they got together, who am i going to talk to or hang out with? I dont think I could tell you a single detail of what happened over this past week, and a lot has happened. So I can look at that now and say to myself that God has a plan for me to meet someone and have even a better relationship than I had with Cody. That just freaked me out for the rest of the time I was there so I had to put that in this journal so someone could feel the same way that I did when I found out, that person is fine though, they just walked away from the hospital with cuts and bruises which is something to praise God for cause it coulda been way worst then it turned out to be. After several of these calls, they finally bit the bullet and told us that someone was out the back plucking Busby for dinner that night. It made me not want to have kids and I know that's mean to say but honestablished is supposed to be a good thing right?

Click here for the rest of the story. It would have been nice to spend some of that energy on the fictional Nicky, but my heart is obviously biding its time for the Fiery Ones return. I had been alone for several months, and I was not going to turn down the first feelings of camaraderie I had had since leaving home. My brother was mean, he said my hair looks the same *heart break* but my red is REAL red. It would have been better had I not been trying to avoid stepping on or running into the 5 billion tourists there with us. Afterwards, we were going to go to the American History museum, but it was already 3:30, and it closes at 5, so we decided to walk around and see the monuments and such. We were walking from the restaurant to the Irish pub, and who did we run into?

Oh man, I am so not over him... But for love of the book I must put it here. How did she even make it to the top tweleve? And the rest of the time was spent talking about the logistics of making a whale costume for Halloween.

I feel good about it. And may the Angels of All things Good walk with You and Yours. Out of all the major cities I've been to, San Fran is definitely my favorite. When is your favorite time of day? What is your favorite thing to use when you masturbate? I was fighting so hard to stay awake to see her when B picked her up from the airport. What is your favorite thing to do after 9p. m.? What is your favorite Band? Favorite place to cry? Just like you get used to the hue of your own television, or the slight static in the background, so too do you stamp out the imperfections in your own life. At the tender age of 16mos, my mother didn't feel that having a husband and a son was too cool, so she split. Now, he makes $50,000 a year and is negotiating salary above that with the paper in Connecticut. Tonight M, in the context of other things, casually mentioned that he had brought up raises for Aaron, his best friend, who's the editor of the company start-up weekly, and Joey, Aaron's sports editor, with Harvey. And what about the fact that I doubled circulation in two key areas in my beat in FOUR MONTHS when I started at the daily and am having the same effect in the city now?? I did 17 or 18 for the Argus, and that's local news - meaning I have to re-write half the goddamn copy and grill reporters and track down photos and cutlines.

I just get so bored, I'll regret this at some point I'm sure but I want adventure in my life. Of things in my past that I regret? I hate this s- it rules my life. Should I be worried that more people on the Internet said hello for my birthday than in my real life? Most people lost faith in Guns N Roses after all of the original members except Axl left. A trip around the mall, marvelling at all the new stores, and a lunch break at Wendy's before heading to South junior high for the second guard demonstration. I mean, I could easily name all the members of the band. As soon as war is declared or someone gets killed in the name of my religion, the whole thing's off. Since my last entry was a long one about the concert, I didnt have a chance to add other random things that are going on. For those who dispute there is an afterlife, or the power of divinity, I submit to you that I have a real angel now named Michelle who nobody or nothing can ever take away from me. How could I have been so blind? Considering I had only attended one funeral prior to those 12 months, I'd have to say that funerals have had a dramatic increase in frequency in my life so far.

Check out CKy. I never fell out of a chair ONCE in kindergarten. Out with the old, in with the new? Miller talks about the flag and dead soldiers and then attacks the press and Democrats who question the president's policy. BUSH, President of the United States of America, do hereby proclaim September 11, 2003, as Patriot Day. The official name for 9/11 is Patriot Day. Any criminals are to be rounded up and locked up the day they are identified.

I HAVE to talk to Jenny at some point today other wise its going to be two weeks with out hearing her voice:-s.. I just read in Health that cilantro can kill salmonella, so you might want to wash that down with some fresh salsa. Haven't I been saying that we are too damn busy?? I'll help, and trow mine to while your at it... for saying that in order to be attractive I needed to go goth! I mean hey you can act all polite in shit and speak shit about me behind that facade smile you have but I want you all to know that you just make me feel disappointed just as I have disappointed you. So please take care, and know that I love you and miss you with all of my heart. I explained my situation and that I had lost some money while I had ate lunch there. I go to this pizza place for lunch and before I leave the van, I take the two $100 bills and shove them in my pocket. Anyway, today I finally remembered to come up with some damn questions and email them to my author, who actually responded in a record one-and-a-half hours. Anyway, he was very nice about answering my questions, though he came off as very distinctly anti-imperialism, anti-capitalism, anti-American, EXTREMELY-anti-Bush. Anyway, I hope Barbara Ortiz, my friend, you are safe out there...