I dont know if I can handle him being gone for a whole week! People were supposed to call me this weekend and let me know if they wanted to get together or if anything was going on, but that didn't happen. Why is it that people always feel like they have to put on a happy face when they're talking to others? One of Tony's nice friends, whose name I didn't get, just told me Heather is running it too, so if I see her I'll thank her for answering my question and making me feel like less of a dink for having asked it, and if I don't, well, it's right here. Next time I'm that pissed off I'm going to videotape it so I can laugh at myself later! I want to weep in the arms of a boy i once knew and tell him that he bit my pretty red heart in two. I mean the whole point of this is - I can't see whats going to happen next.. and that scares me, I press my lips onto this mirror we call life and blow till my cheeks expand but I go nowhere, and neither does my breath. I should see by now that I am always second bestablished No matter how hard I try with anything, I will always be second bestablished Regardless of whether I am expecting to be second best or not. I've come to realize that some do and even some girls do but live and learn you know? That philosophy can make your life much more fulfilling. Alright, kelly talked aobut the mall yesterday so I don't need to do that I guess.... I mean, it was obvious I wouldn't but -it still hurts because Jasmine made it and I KNOW I AM a BETTER player that her.

So I didnt I stayed up and continued to dwell on all the shit that I shouldnt dwell on. These are the people that bring a smile on my face. That was all *pre* coffee. Here they have this GREAT PRODUCT, that actually DOES what it is designed and purported to DO, and they are not standing on rooftops shouting it out to the WORLD?!?!?!!!!! That was cool. I had to deal with a bunch of headaches because of that to have the HOA and county thinking my neighbor is a loser. What good is that going to do me, when I'll be at work?

Has anyone ever noticed how almost all makeup had the same scent, back then? But that means that I'm suffering, my throat is scratchy from all the coughing. Doesnt that mean he wanted a skinny girlfriend. I was trying to put my arm piercing in when Gabe announced that the street was going to be turned into a makeshift dance floor. I haven't spoken to him since that day on the doorstep, when I told him I had been going to therapy and had remembered some things he had done to me when we were children. I am still trying to get my brain and spirit around all the stuff I encountered there.

Myself, I have a whole new level of respect for people who can and do parent kids who have attachment problems. I was resisited because, well, I am a baby, and I have nobody to take care of me. Well, of course it's good, but I don't think it brings even one moment of pure and true bliss. Mostly because of Jon, but also in part to a certain of amount of respect for myself I would like to maintain. Playing in the river was one of my favorite parts because it felt like a spiritual cleansing. What is you favorite color? Where is your favorite place to have sex? Where is the most public place you have had sex at? Well anyway, i was posted to the third shift and my exam would only start at 1pm. The kids would love it, as would I. Sure, I know I want the Unauthorized Biography of Lemony Snicket or for my phone to be connected, but I don't know what I want. I exchanged phone numbers with someone I knew ahead of time to be a person with AIDS. It made me not want to have kids and I know that's mean to say but honestablished is supposed to be a good thing right? I mean overall it was a good vacation, I got to hang out with my cousins CorCor and Kny and JB and Nato, but the other baby cousin that I have is driving me up a wall. You know, I look back at that time, and even though I was horribly depressed and wildly infatuated with a girl who was not reciprocating at all, but that shit doesn't matter.

Go team me! This is me, dagnabbit. Dewald didn't even ask me to sight-read. I didn't understand, he looked like he was holding back something as well but tearing up for Jay? I'd like to invite you to enjoy Eloquent. I don't like your template though, it kind of makes your words hard to read! I really just like things to look nice and be organized. All of the guys there are like brothers to me and I would never think of being with any of them, alhtough I did fuck one of them last year in my rebound state. At the time, sales were down and Chander was spending money like a drunken sailor on new equipment and other things. It is the cowardice and tyranny of which they are the victims which make their sufferings so especially touching... As I think of the kindness and love that youve shown.

Take the Monopoly Piece Quiz! But we had to sleep in the same room. I get to sleep over Nanna's this weekend while Patty is sleeping over my house. As a matter of fact some people there get away with murder because they take advantage that Howard is not a corporate business type but an ex- truck driver.... a former working man.... a former union steward. This leads me to only one conclusion and that is, Chander either wants me to work cheap, or wants me out of there. I am betting even further that the only reason I am getting the extra 10 percent may be a concession that Chander made to Howard and that is where the remark about the extra money making up for the time I will be off looking for a job came up. Remember that little invite effort I made the other day at work? All ramblings ? Little Miss X, with painkillers on backing vocals, 'toises on drums and Izzles on the musical toilet rolls. Witnessing a Fistfight on a train and other bizarreness on a journey up to Y's! Today I finally realised that it was about time I put a link on my old diary to this one so that people would know where I was. Think about how much hair has played a part in society and fasion; how would you be effected? But, Would you be my boyfriend?

Some would think my exposure to so many different regions, neighbourhoods and people around Australia would give me a more complete sense of what it is to be Australian. Now, he is to us a complete and familiar person; someone with thoughts, opinions, values, humour and culture to be known and understood. Well it is time to get some shut eye and catch up on sleep cause I didn't get any over this past weekend... Most of the time anyway. Unfortunately, I think that every one has decided on the first weekend in November, which is when my dad and step-mom are coming for a visit. It seems that every time we go to the Island, we end up walking around in this really cold damp wind. I just want to be around him all the time. After golfing we drove around to Williams Bay, Elkhorn and did some shopping in Lake Geneva. I didn't want to go at first, but he made me go and play for the first time, and I had fun. She's already discussing the kid's names with you, and I know that you are ready to have a family. Then Eric comes over, but then again so do everyone else, and I shouldn't think that it's weird for him to do that.

I'm sure it will be like the 22 episodes of Charlie's Angels that I bought a few months ago, and like the Queer as Folk Season 2 a few months before that..... I like the word 'piratey'. I started to get excited, but was reminded that I can't act like some silly fan. I grunted, growled and prepared to tell the offending party that I was BUSY when I glanced up and saw the SN glaring at me from the new window... Bitch and I were going through a short-lived period of getting along fine when she asked an innocent enough question: Why don't we carry People magazine? How thrilled I was to find out that not only was he alive but that he was GETTING BETTER! And I think, then why the fuck should I? Stupidity, ignorance, and the fact that totally hot yet completely unattainable people exist. What is it that you find interesting about this diary? Now that I think of it there aren't that many really really good animes coming out this year. I am not obsessed or anything, really! The quote I put in his diary entry for him this past Friday came straight out of his mouth. Looks like Saddle Creek is really making the connections, lately.

They were black hot pants with a boot leg, that looked painted on me. I wore an all black suit with a white dress shirt and a black and white patterned tie. We look over to the bench where Ed and Jen were sitting and they were making out. They were all lovey dovey at the dance. I can't really think of anything else that happened at the dance but it was definately the best dance that I have ever been to. January 11, 2002 - she really didnt think anything of it until i didnt come home right away. January 02, 2002 - Its Jessica Talking Football Again... It seems that every time we go to the Island, we end up walking around in this really cold damp wind. The people perched all around me were all fun, excellent people. After a little while longer, we all said our 'byes back at the now-quiet, and sleepy party room. I see him in my dreams all the time. While their distinctive style still remained, they now sounded like a band, instead of four musicians playing different things at the same time. A different old friend of mine and I would play that constantly.

People without meaning are of no use to me now. Now, Dustin was sliding back into the spa with two glasses of Champagne. I think after I finish knitting for the craft fair, I'm going to be done knitting for other people for a while. It's been awhile since I wrote one, but what do you think of the Misadventures of Monty & Dexter? I do think it was kind of funny seeing away messages later that resembled mine in a way but, thats their issue, not mine. I think it's my new favorite show because at least I do not weigh 450 pounds! Where is your favorite place to have sex? Who is your favorite writer? What is your favorite thing to use when you masturbate? To see you, when I wake up is a gift I didn't think could be real. IS that how you think you should be? My theory is that you can find the same amount of chumps in real life as online. Dorknoodle's ex-boyfriend needs to get the animals out of that house because the lease specifically says no animals. And I held your hand through all of these years that you still have on me.