I hate injections. And generally I save this diary for the more sugary sweet mundane events, but sometimes I wander from the safety net and write something I actually care about. Hi, i'm new to this online diary thing, and i just wanted to say you're writing is wonderful. I had so much I wanted to say, but what I wanted to say would have caused such a scene in the middle of the restaurant that it would have risen above the din of the college football and baseball and basketball games. One party is, I dont even know what it is, but Daria and I are on the Guestlist so we have to go. I became more and more horrified as I watched the deli man finger through a loaf of bread for just the right two pieces before finally settling in on what looked like the two most mismatched sized he could find only to then proceed in covering them with mayonnaise. And I do like the phrase, I was just poking you to see what you'd do... Or would you just let him have his space and share the Lonely Hill comfortably as I think you want him to do for you? Law and Ethics don't matter here, for this one moment you can execute anyone you like... This is a legal matter.

Back to school... I just want her to leave me alone. I will be back Monday, if our Internet provider doesn't cut us off. If I am NOT here Monday, that would be why.

I don't think anoyone's going to want to be around on the day when I finally leave home, I might jsut flip and let out everything. We know how to feed boys around here. I am still trying to get my brain and spirit around all the stuff I encountered there. And I held your hand through all of these years that you still have on me.

This is not all consuming and I'll do my best and move on. The mood hit me and I found myself on one of my favorite porn sites and inevitably my hand snaked down under my sittin' around pants and went straight to work on my clitoris. Who is your favorite writer? Where is your favorite place to have sex? We spent some time in Johnny Darling's Favorite Sex Position - me on my back, his butt in my face, while he gnawed on my cock. We need to fix things I'm not sure we can address, at least not in the tiny amount of time we have, and I don't relish having a trouble episode. If they ever need anything from me Ill make sure to turn my back on them the way they did me. So I didnt think anything of him and yesterday I came to school and we were all lovey dovey and what not. I am in school right now so I am going to make this short and sweet. I'm huddled under my new flannel trying to keep warm and not think about how chilly my feet are. Everything has a twist, you just make them clever so the audience has to use a tad more brain cells to think about it. I think it is the first day that I haven't seen him at all since we started going out. It's so absurd to think that I never even considered making movies and celebrities an intrinsic part of my life.

I'm not happy. Not to say I don't worry, but I think they'll be okay. So I didnt think anything of him and yesterday I came to school and we were all lovey dovey and what not. Not a kiss a hug or anything. Preston had gone out of town to visit his ex-roomie on New Years Eve, and did not make it home until after dinner was just finishing. Spike and I have a flirty friendship and have gone out to dinner several times to just talk and enjoy each other's company. That really sucks and I guess Im not going to let it happen.

I wish you luck with school and everything else. To ensure death, place both wrists in the toilet and flush to help purge out that unwanted blood. Something inside of me knew that it wasnt right for me to play mommy and limit him. Lets pretend his name is Jim or Bruce or something that nobody is actually ever called anymore. Theres something about an Air Supply song. I knew this was something I had to do, but the internal fighting began to wear down my upbeat attitude which changed to a negative, depressed personality. I began to drink obsessively until I made the move to the high school in tenth grade. What is the kinkiest thing you would like to do? I speak here to my magnanimous attitude but my actions in the heat of the moment can be the epitome of childish. I was raised in the United Church, which is a sort of watered down Methodism, and I'm used to very formal services.

Oh my, you know that blue template that you did with the guy's arm in the picture and the girl in a truck or something smiling? I wanted to email you to tell you that I liked your diary and that I'd help with the html. The payroll office has lost my time sheet and has no record that I ever worked there. The only thing that I have missed all weekend is sleep cause every night I was up playing video games till the wee hours of the morning. I mean overall it was a good vacation, I got to hang out with my cousins CorCor and Kny and JB and Nato, but the other baby cousin that I have is driving me up a wall. We were walking from the restaurant to the Irish pub, and who did we run into? Kourtnee and I arrived at Harrisons Soul Food Restaurant at 2:02 PM. Jamie walked in the restaurant. Kourtnee told the waitress that we were waiting for someone. I stayed at my sisters all weekend, although I wish that I had splurged on the hotel.

Its pretty new. I bent my wookie... Also this is my diary and if you don't like what you read, then I suggest you move on to another diary. Rachel's Rating: {8/10} - These are always hard to do, because rating your diary means your WHOLE diary, and not just your content.

I picked up some shit from my moms house, stuff I'd left there since I moved out. This morning John, my friend and musical collaborator for the past seven years, left for Maui, where he will be managing a studio in Lahaina. Suffice to say, there was a lot of jealousy and bitterness at the studio, and John got the worst of it. ThenI didn't even get to talk to Nick after lunch today cuz the bell rang to early and Travis was there anyway. Most of the time anyway.

It's a little frightening how quickly my Santa Barbara people are falling away. And in his hand is a tiny little antique box with a shiny brass latch. Well, well just have to agree to disagree for the time being anyway, I said with a slight grin. The problem with trying to stand firm and not renew a magazine is that eventually the magazine will grovel for so long, and make the subscription so cheap, that you will sigh and give in and write a check. Iknow eventually he is going to find someone else and I am gonna have to accept it, but right now it just feels like someone is sticking a knife in my heart. I know he is not with me but it hurts to know he is out there looking for someone else. If I cannot even have a man that loves me want to stay than what is going to make anyone else want to stay. I mean the whole point of this is - I can't see whats going to happen next.. and that scares me, I press my lips onto this mirror we call life and blow till my cheeks expand but I go nowhere, and neither does my breath. That scares me to no end. I love the fact that I found a job where I am appreciated for the hard worker that I am and not just slapped around like some kind of idiot or something. I resent the fact that you give prefrence to an employee who lies, manipulates, and is ineffectual at her job just because she has her nose so far up your ass you can't tell where she ends and you begin. I really really loved your last entry.. what really sucks is when you apply the hard logic to your parents and they resent the fact that you were right.. keep up the awesome writing..