Suffer is an understatement. She then said she also hates not going on weekends we're supposed to, because my grandmother is 90 years old and she always worries that we won't go some weekend and something will happen to her. We were supposed to go last night, but I had the most god-awful cramps all day yesterday, and it took everything I had to stay at work. I mean, I am not averse to compliments, but that is no kind of thing to say to me. It would be even cooler if you could tell it to NEVER play that track. But I won't bother replying to her-I'm not black-and I know from the tone of my entry here, I would not be welcome to counter her message!!

It was wonderful. It was SOOOOO nice hearing this. Too bad it was just a dream. You know who the last person I kissed was... It was so funny. I was stupid for putting up with it and being so na?ve and he was dumb for doing it to me. I want a child who follows the rules because she sees the benefit in doing so! I think I'll have to get rid of him, though, because he's eating all the cardboard in our attic. We did practice the guitar, but I really dont think I learned as much as I could have if I had had an ugly teacher.

I reserve final judgment on omissions until the real version of ROTK comes out in November; rumor currently holds the extended version as having an hour fifteen minutes of additional material! Al was currently unemployed, but was known for many things. My shaw site, currently undeveloped and only being used to host images for this site, will soon be turned into a haven for concert pics and reviews. My book case has just turned into a big library, basically.

Good experiences on Diaryland? I have some phone friends through diaryland... Clearly reassurance of some sort was necessary. But haven't found that person and still think I need some time to figure out myself before I jump into something else.

From what little I know about the past, there was a great blizzard in the winter of '78 forcing many bored husbands and wives to stay indoors and inevitably have sex to relive said boredom. I'm allergic to soap, but if you mean the shows, then prolly Mary's Place.... lol, half of you don't even know what that is. And you know what - I've lost hope. I finally know what it is to start to feel like I belong doing what I'm supposed to be doing. Finally, for awhile now I have considered writing a cop-out entry where I just copy and paste three drunken emails that my friends Gopi, Julie, and I co-wrote when they visited a few months ago. I want to know what I'm getting, you know? For those of you who know me, the fact that I live in a fraternity is quite humorous but it's a lot of fun. But that doesn't stop the fact that I miss the feeling of intimacy in your diary, of knowing you in a raw and unedited way, as you are, with your mistakes as well as your perfection. If you're interested, give me a holler.. oh, and is that Shuggie Otis album any good? When you are a genuine nice person... that comes across in conversation. And I heard the most beautiful, loveable voice I had EVER heard in my entire life.... the conversation progressed....

I have always been too susceptible to the climate in this way if someone else is doing something, sometimes even if its a thing for whatever reason I am strongly disposed against, then I second-guess myself and wonder if I ought to be doing it as well; its as if anything not chosen by me deserves more consideration and more respect than its opposite. If it comes on the radio, youre undoubtedly going to roll your eyes and groan, changing the station to something more hip, preferably whose call letters end in an X. I was told i bird walk, it means like, talking about something, going off on a tangent and talking about something completely different, then going back to what i was talking about before like i havent been ranting about something else for the last 5 minutes. We want to read about the slimeballs! Want to share about it? How is it that your family is going to be the happiest and most love? It reminds me of that movie, Airheads, the part where they're listing their demands and they ask for naked pictures of her, so that they can plead insanity later. All I can say is that it was some magical shit. So we were sleep for like a half hour and then all of a sudden me and my bro heard this big pop and the house went to humming like it was a motor shutting down, and then all the power went out.

Time to start the fire, no problem I can do it, Sash and I collected wood, Carolyn got the big pieces and added paper.. screw that, I dumped half a can of gas on it and we were off. All ramblings ? Little Miss X, with painkillers on backing vocals, 'toises on drums and Izzles on the musical toilet rolls. Best viewed in 800x600 and with a pair of eyes and a sense of humour. Sometimes harder, sometimes lighter, sometimes almost stopping and sometimes sobbing wrathfully into the earth. And it's hot, sudden flames licking out to strangle me, the world wavers in the steam, my brain contracts and fire pulses to fill the void, boiling blood thudding angrily in my ears. I cant really complain because I rarely go to the doctor but I hate how they tell you to come early to fill out your paperwork and then the doctor proceeds to ask you every question thats on the paperwork again. The unjustice makes me crazy sometimes. I can respect that... keep stopping by and dropping lines...~Hugs~ I'm off to nurse my bangs, bruises, bumps and various injuries from the pits yesterday!

There was no saint by the name my grandparents had originally chosen, and my grandfather blurted out the first thing that came into his head when they were in the baptistery and the priest told them they needed a different name. Softly, sweetly, a scent so faint that I thought I was hallucinating rose from the seam. I thought of the time my parents came to visit me in Hawaii, and how much she loved it there. That was pretty much the last we thought about it until my mother died and my sister had the teddy bears made.

I need a new drink. Okay i need a nap! I mean i would love to get all worked about about u coming to visit. What about Love at first sight? I'm allergic to soap, but if you mean the shows, then prolly Mary's Place.... lol, half of you don't even know what that is. What is Love? What is your least favorite thing about yourself: where do i start? What is your favorite memory? What is your favorite Band? What is your favorite song? Can I Hold Your Hand? It is my favorite part in the song, and all I want to do is shut it off and cry. Who is your favorite writer? Where is your favorite place? What is your favortie drink?

I was supposed to be resting today, but things never work out the way you plan. The fact that she realized how she felt about me clearly enough to stop before things went any further with him means a lot to me. And then she talked more about how she'd realized that her feelings had shift, how she'd been hanging out with him and other friends, and it had felt comfortable, but then shit happened and she knew it wasn't the same, and it started to get clear where the conversation was heading. I've talked about them before, right? I want to say I really like it, and some days I really do. I realized that it's not worth saying unless you really mean it or if you feel the other person feels the same way and even so, I hold back. I guess that's the joy of an online diary, you don't have to see your saddness again if the net crashes. Did you see that they have a ring for stephanies? Find something you would truly love to do for the rest of your life and chase it. I don't see the point in chasing after something that will never be mine. In my opinion, this event was the testablished How mature am I at this point in my life? This time in my life is where I created two of my greatest friendships, which had a profound affect on my life. However, what touched my life the most that year was the death of my closest cousin, Michael. However, I believe the most difficult thing in life is to hate something and love hating it.