I watched this 'THE BIGGEST LOSER' show tonight. Then when the child started crying I thought maybe the bird was pecking at his eyeballs - and yet I still couldn't pull either apart, or off. I brought my hands down and was trying to figure out the situation when the baby started making sounds of unhappiness. Just standing there on the kids face - the kid I couldn't see. It was easy to see, and now I like the song more. Monday couldn't have gone more perfectly, though - not only were our hosts friendly, but the crowd was as well and we really made some new friends. The one is obviously much more conducive to conversation that doesn't have to involve yelling and a lot of dropped syllables and missed words.

People are people and...... they're people. It means so much to me that people actually care and sympathize with my crazy internal drama. The current population of the world is 6,388,971,752 people. To again keep with an age demographic, the number of men 20-30 years of age is 451,826. At this time I can't and don't know what to say bc first, I am on the phone with a cust, second I am completely shocked. This is what I look like when I first get up in the morning. But I'm so glad I took the time to appreciate that this really is what I want to do, because I don't think I ever could have been so happy before. My life sucks most of the time, but that doesn't keep me down for long, because I always get what I want, no matter what it is. Have I ever mentioned that I have the greatest father in the entire space-time continuum? And then getting her to arrange a time with Lynn, so that I can tell her just with me and Tal there. If you don't want to be sociable and would rather stay at home while your man goes out with his friends getting high and going to strip clubs, be my guestablished Just don't fucking lie and say you need to check with your man first. I don't have what I want...

The problem. I mean, the current No. What the FUCK am I doing? Please, pray, do a spell, send positive energy, dance around a fire what ever to send the positive energy this way and keep things this way. Confidence is one of, if not the most positive and attractive personality traits, despite it being difficult to quantify. Raising your confidence levels is perhaps one of the toughest things to do, but its effects can be seen everywhere in your life, from dating and business to sports. Get the confidence that gets the ladies... If I'd known then that I would be having so much trouble now, and that men fall around the age of 18 and don't get back up for a long time, I would've been more grateful for what I had. The second thing it highlighted for me was that I actually really do like the people I worked with, including my replacement, Marcy. He takes several of the photos that people see of his sister as well as other celebrities. This concerns me - I'm certain this isn't natural but apparently it's the only thing it can manage.

And that love continues between us all. I love his voice, his rebelliousness, and yeah, his looks. Six Feet Under - May-June 2003 - I think what it is about Six Feet Under is the relationship between Nate and Brenda feels so real to me, and for some reason, I can really identify with it. What happens if you are in a relationship with someone who is the absolute best in bed, however, you have come to realize that you dont like them anymore? CLIX me HERE if you like what you've read! And is that what you call a getaway? If you don't like my diary it is your problem, not mine. Speaking of nice trailers, I'm looking forward to The Grudge... but if they don't stop showing the same trailer over and over, I'm gonna get a complex about small children. It had a nice storyline and Jay and Silent Bob. Pride and Prejudice - It was nice the first 20 times I saw it. He was my first and I thought I was in love. My first real boyfriend had just broken up with me. That was basically my life until I met my boyfriend now.

Why the hell does he need to make fricking everything so difficult?! Glory Hallelujah, Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord! Anyway my third class was kinda crazy cause the subject is kinda crazy, and I don't think I really wanna learn about this stuff!

I am working on being gracious when people say that they like my postings, but I still have to fight the impulse not to stare at the ground, mumble something self-deprecating, and then run to the bar and order most of it. Well, when I called them, they told me they hadn't been paid in quite some time, and their calls were not being returned by corporate. For the short time we had carried it, we were getting 3 copies and maybe sold 2 of them. Maybe just a turkey, so I can give her something left over for sandwiches and soup for a few days. This continued for the duration of tenth grade and into my junior year where sports injuries, bad behavior, and lack of schoolwork concentration left me alone to the world. My seventh grade nights consisted of sneaking out, running around town doing various not so legal things, and much more drinking than the average thirteen year old. I scooped some of the juices from around my cock and tried to feed it to her, which brought a squeal and more giggles, not to mention juices all over her wiggling face. It would be nice if we could go to the same school again when he goes back to get his Master's and I go back to get my doctorate. And when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it feels like to fall and get hurt. And if I actually do get to sleep, I can't stay in bed too late because Torgo usually attacks my face if I'm not up and running before noon. I am more than ready to bail, but as Vietnamese is one of Dennis' things he has to have whenever he can get it. I thought mentioning his wife and two kids would have dulled the pain of the apparently many years of Gay Jay jokes, but I guess not.

Evidently, I'm not THAT close in order to believe and hope and trust again. You know, because Id think that I was inherently more desirable then my close friends and if she were to choose them over me yeah, well.. I dont think so because shes dated some real world class scum bags and that didnt bother me. So I owe Alex money and Meghan as well, because I didnt put anything into her account today. Everyone was so scared, but no one knew anything. I didn't think anything of it, but it did excite me just a little. Mum was on the internet, so I couldn't even check online to see if everyone was okay. What is Check 21 compliance-land? After all of that the one really special thing that comes to mind is that on Sunday at 1:30 a. m. And then getting her to arrange a time with Lynn, so that I can tell her just with me and Tal there. Shes been waiting and waiting, thinking that I needed some time alone to heal before she called me. He called me over and asked me to go tell Patty he's almost out of music and to bring some more.

Her: A nai.... Later on in the night, when she wasn't doing very well, the Pharmacist offered her a xanax which, from what he said, almost instantly negates the effects of LSD. From what Dancer says, she walked away before the Pharmacist said this and then came back and asked for a mint. This going to bed at 1:30 AM when I really need to wake up early and look for a job is really kind of ridiculous. I thought that maybe I would write something here to educate you, the reader, of who I am and what this whole diary thing is about. Does this mean that you are done with diaryland? The very moment I heard the Dears for the first time I fell utterly in love with their sound. Finally got a hold of Michelle on the phone she squealed with excitement at seeing me, and I felt the same way. I do know we have the same passions, and many of the same interests, and we get along so well all a great start. From the mall it was on to the pool, where Michelle supervised the guards and I watched it all. When I got up, I caught up with the e-mail and finished as Michelle returned form work.

It's not always easy to be civil but oh I should remember part of my net creed even when it isn't PC. And tonight, I'll arrive even later than last night... probably after 9 pm. Even if I am really not going to bed. Have you ever dressed up as an Angel when going out? I have an unfulfilled fantasy of kicking a guy squaw in the nads.

This little fact should not affect my wonderful mood. My name was, of course, on 'the list.' Keep in mind, this is the same list that has the celebrities' names on it. Once again, this is a horrible tragedy. I feel horrible today. The deal I made this time is that I would work the rest of the day answering the phones at the office if I could have Christmas Eve off. He told me that I was the best intern they'd ever had, and that when I graduate and am looking for a job, I should talk to him.