I still held a candle for GN'R during the years that they disbanded and general chaos erupted. Search the body and theirs no hole.... I die every night, i wake up reanimated, and sometime during the day my mind's refreshed into what i used to know and maybe i'll look back, and a smile will be forced from my face of what could be a horrible life but is kept together with a strong will... You can't judge a book by it's cover or so i've been told, maybe i'm just living in a fantasy world where people act good to one another, but whats the fun in that? I feel, so, so whats the word... ah yes annoyed with people who think that i am something that i'm not when i barely even know them. All I felt I had left was Sarah, the long time girlfriend that was always by my side. Aunt Daphne made a delicious, tearfully-spicy cajun dish called Dirty Rice when we got back to the house, and that was pretty much the end of that day... other than the excitement when a tiny white gecko was found in the fridge. Might I add, that we were in such a rush that we forgot to get change for the parking meter!?!! They kept looking at us strangely, like we were somehow tainting their establishment, that we were Greek imposters, that we were filthy liars. While we were there, something unexpected happened: they were very hesitant to believe we were Greek. The Notify wishes they were all as cool as Bob, who gave me tickets to the ACL taping for the Pixies tonigh. We were rummaging through my mother's car, looking for lose change. We talked about how things were going to be different for him in the future, how certain aspects were going to have to change. Small yellow pika-like things that can balance glasses on their heads are always fun. Winds were really really really really really bad today.

P has been working crazy long hours for the past month or so. Anyway my third class was kinda crazy cause the subject is kinda crazy, and I don't think I really wanna learn about this stuff! My first class was with WILBUR R. I can't tell you how many dreams I've had where I've completely and totally missed a class for the whole semester and passing that class was the deciding factor for me graduating from school. Well, well just have to agree to disagree for the time being anyway, I said with a slight grin. She's so into her faith and being faithful at all times, and with our world the way it is, with all our filth and nastyness, it must be hard. In April, Jews were required to register with the government all personal property valued at 5,000 marks or more. Another example would be the Dred Scott case, which is where judges, years ago, said that the Constitution allowed slavery because of personal property rights. The Constitution of the United States says we're all - you know, it doesn't say that. I call upon the people of the United States to observe this day with appropriate ceremonies and activities, including remembrance services and candlelight vigils. BUSH, President of the United States of America, do hereby proclaim September 11, 2003, as Patriot Day. Of people I consider my enemies? To again keep with an age demographic, the number of men 20-30 years of age is 451,826. It ran away into the lake and drowned. The beginning of my end, and I put so much effort into it.

I mean i would love to get all worked about about u coming to visit. What about Love at first sight? What if you are with someone that you believe is the one to marry. Yet, the money and job stability just doesnt seem to be happening with this person, and you are not too sure it will ever be great? I'm going to be successful because I'm not starting a family until after I'm done school and after I'm married and I know that me and my husband are stable. There will have to be a walk along the beach at some point in the story but I havent worked all that out yet. I guess I will have to talk about today. Anyway.... you probably won't hear from me tomorrow because I won't get in till late.... and after I've unpacked the car.... replaced all the burnt out lightbulbs... checked for disasters.... poured myself a drink.... and checked the email...... well..... I am off work this week because of something fucked up that went down that I will sure as fuck write about as soon as I can. Lets pretend his name is Jim or Bruce or something that nobody is actually ever called anymore. After that I began drawing in my notebook, not feeling like encouraging more ink poisoning. Tell me would you love me tomorrow? This led to a fantastic conversation about faith and myth that was just way to poignant at eleven o clock in the morning.

That's not what the Constitution says. What do you do? Please tell me that someone understands what I'm trying to say here! What about my past problem with rage? Here's the paper I turned in about which community I will focus on for our semester-long research project in Community & Identities. Then it dawned on me - in my mind, something about Whataburger is Texas. If it comes on the radio, youre undoubtedly going to roll your eyes and groan, changing the station to something more hip, preferably whose call letters end in an X. The gbook link wasn't working so..... are you giving out the password to your private entry? I will probably be complaining about something. I was told i bird walk, it means like, talking about something, going off on a tangent and talking about something completely different, then going back to what i was talking about before like i havent been ranting about something else for the last 5 minutes. Tell me about morphine and silence and music and bees...

I smooch you all. The challenge of coming up with a subject to write about and the practice writing causes you to start noticing things in your day that you would not usually notice. Lotsa new stuff to write about. I don't think that I can fully describe in words my thoughts and feelings about how bad I feel as a person that I am not out with her right now............... just like Avril says... Trees alight by the sun that they burn brightly in the night. Did you see that they have a ring for stephanies? And then getting her to arrange a time with Lynn, so that I can tell her just with me and Tal there. I cant hold her and let her cry all over me for an hour and then go skipping happily off to my own life. Let her die? I'm sorry, I know that I love her and that I'm glad to see her, that I was excited for her to get here. With all these lovely people that I have nothing to say to. I thought it would be grand to see the event and maybe call down to someone that I liked if they happened to pass, they'd have quite an experience in recognizing the voice of an old aquaintance coming from the top of a tree. The only thing that I have missed all weekend is sleep cause every night I was up playing video games till the wee hours of the morning.

Making sure everyone is free on the same night can be a real logistical nightmare. I woke up in the morning, startled by a nightmare that was triggered by Mr. So, I decided to copy and paste the listings that Linda sends us each day. I could have just as easily asked Linda to add the readers to her distribution list or I could have forwarded her e-mail to them, but I'd rather keep my online life separate from my real world life. So far, none of my friends know about this diary and that's the way I'd like to keep it. However, if ____ were to date any of my close friends, Richard, Nick, etc., Id have a SEVERE problem with that. Oh and as to why I blanked the name; It could be a couple of people that Im talking about, and both read this diary. But I do think that it's weird that there was an accident, lots of alcohol, Colin, me and him hugging, and sobbing and Calling Out all in both my dream and the situation today in both of them... think God is reaching out to me? As they laid there and the movie came to an end, they began to talk about random things. Those stereotypical guys types that talk about how women are all emotional and they talk to much about feelings and stuff like that? I dont know which age Id like to stay forever yet because I havent lived them all but please, someone remind me of that question when I have. I answered Lily because Ive always thought that was such a pretty elegant name but with a double meaning, conservative or creative, you know? Brittany didnt ask any questions but I cant resist replying to what she said because it irked me Be strong, Cor; you can get through anything and I agree with Rise's comment on the barrier-like attitude, or however it was originally phrased in her own words.

And while my shits were exceptional, the smell of RB now kinda makes me queasy. He screamed so loudly and we were in the conductor's car. They were all lovey dovey at the dance. Have you listened to the Cat Power show archieved on Sounds Eclectic? I figured you would cause you said you really wanted to learn to play the guitar, so there.

Woo, Friday night. Went out last night. Now I am a perverted adult, but these days it takes more than some mouth-to-mouth resuscitation or improvised arm splints to get me going. She's talking to me a lot and she's being all perverted and she's even engaged. They do that every morning so that they can clear the beds and set them up for the next lodgers, she said. A trip around the mall, marvelling at all the new stores, and a lunch break at Wendy's before heading to South junior high for the second guard demonstration. Her and my father divorced when I was around the age of 8. I never thought that I would ever actually find that person that would make me so happy and so comfortable to be around that it's like just being alone and comfortable with myself. I thought she was a bitch when I first met her and I kinda gave her that Im-looking-at-u-up-and-down-cuz-I-want-you-to-know-ur-a-bitch-Look. I thought of the time my parents came to visit me in Hawaii, and how much she loved it there. And when the change of music and the keys on the piano tapped with melodic rythm, he placed her arms around his neck and lift her into revolutions omg i almost teared. Did I mention how I hate the Oregon Coast??

Love never fails. Two Alberta beef steak diners and a bottle of redwine for $35 - an awesome deal. I tried to remember when I was just a child, in my room, and my imagination used to run wild, but I never knew that nothing's ever as it seems to be when a dream collides with our reality. I got sent home from work an hour and a half early, so now I have tons of time to kill. I walk towards the station, and am just in time to completely miss the train. We both lay there completely mesmerized, with you still inside of me.... I tell you that I need you so bad.... and that I wanna feel your hot, massive cock inside of me.... And then getting her to arrange a time with Lynn, so that I can tell her just with me and Tal there.

It looks like a miserable existence. It is like 10:00 so Imma submit this in my diary so, if this aint my last entry, its going to be locked. This is like becoming an archbishop so you can meet girls. Will this ever go away? I guess I will be more open and honest here in this e-mail. They said this would probably be the last day he has his eyes open. I downloaded some cool desktop themes and skinz for hotbar and yahoo last night. And yeah, all of Evanescences songs sound the same too. Thus, all their songs sound the same. While their distinctive style still remained, they now sounded like a band, instead of four musicians playing different things at the same time.