A new day is dawning in my quest to surround myself with up-to-date technology. I was thinking today about how very strange technology is. Escape From Technology! The thing about me when I'm angry is, though, that I'm quiet and you don't know when I'm angry until you egg me on- and then I'm a fucking volcano.

She was vomiting and pooping and then she laid on her side and was panting on the floor. I also dreamt that my married aunt was living up above them and they sold or gave her their couch to sleep on. How did you end up living there? In Lahaina there are, John claims, no more frustrated Fuhrers laying down the law; part of the deal is that he is the studio manager, has the final word, and can use the facilities for whatever he wants when the studio is dark. That was part of the thrill. Suffice to say, there was a lot of jealousy and bitterness at the studio, and John got the worst of it. There was an agreement that they had a lopsided sort of friendship going on. Am I making it real because I think that it's suppose to be this way and I can't remember any other? Just because I'm a tall, slim, brunette, that doesn't make me attractive. A girl who has a great body but not an attractive face.

We should do out best for God and should be sorrowful if we fail our God. If not for God during those times in the lowest pits of my life, when all i could do was fall and cry, it was God who supported me. I feel, so, so whats the word... ah yes annoyed with people who think that i am something that i'm not when i barely even know them. Thank you for showing me that there is still something amazing and original out there. Theres something about an Air Supply song. Its a song that youd play in the same rotation as Nights in White Satin; a coke binge song for the early eighties, when you were the kind of girl who wanted to be the bad disco mama, but instead you still couldnt help but get emotionally attached.

I didn't make it. Maybe KS can make it. We need it. Further, I need to do laundoctor and cut my hair and I also have a little pimple on my nose. I was getting fed up with the java scripts anyway, so I didn't really need them around. I should have paid attention to the signs, so I was only pissed at myself when I discovered another car in the spot where I had parked mine. I don't know if it's funny or sad that I discovered a hidden talent for producing video during my second semester senior year. It wasn't until you began polluting her mind and doing more harm than good that I began to worry. I guess Im sorry for that too, but Im more embarrassed to have to apologize to a 33 year old for that more than anything else.

These are the people that make this world livable for me. Were we to take the words of Kelis literally, it would stand to reason that she could bring the entire population of the world's men to the yard. As the current world record for a milkshake is is 6,000 gallons, the 356 gallon shake is highly probable. Applying that to the male population of 451,826, we get the approximation that 78,618 of these men are African-American. Applying our previous variables for race and gender, we are finally left with the number 5,689 African-American men within a square mile of what we are working with to be Kelis' neighborhood. The current population of the world is 6,388,971,752 people. Could one milkshake be that powerful, as to bring all the boys to the yard? I don't smoke pot more than twice a year, and usually only one toke, but I push all the air out of my lungs and take a toke til I cant breathe in anymore, and then hold it til I cant anymore, and usually all the smoke is absorbed and none breathes out. The other day while I was peeing I thought how awesome it would be if I could move to Germany and just work and start anew with Mrs. The seams had begun to loosen as well, and finally, one day, my mother put it in the back of the coat closet in the hallway next to the front door. Another episode of the Running Man Saga in which he has a secret weapon!

This young man appeared to me over a year ago, while I was giving a reading for the woman who had notarized some of my readings. Well, as usual, my life is running about one-half of a block ahead of me, and so I do, once again, respond to the Friday Fives belatedly. So I decided I would listen and write down certain areas and then comment on what he's said and then comment about them on here. And then Brandon decides to leave and get some food. Its has if I ever found the happiness in my life I would try to run from it because I have never felt it, and this misery/loneliness/confusion/emptiness has become a my constant companion and Im unsure if I could live without it. I let the world wash over me, and just accept whats being done to me. I turned over the soil in the original beds and topped it up with fresh compost before re-setting in bits of the mother plants. And the streets filled with water. Anyhow, the idea is intriguing, isn't it? During the rainy season, the streets fill with water and people get around by canoe. And before I could get past the main square, the sprinkles turned to a downpour.

On the way back from D.C earlier this afternoon I wondered what it would be like to stand in the middle of the woods by myself. Will the Real Howard Dean Please Stand Up? Any rebroadcast, reproduction, or other use of the pictures and accounts of this nonsense without the express written consent of Major League Baseball is prohibited. Follow the rise and fall of the greatest sports video game champion the world has ever known. Funny sports parody video of a fallen video game champion. This is one of the funniest video's I've seen. You could feel this huge intake of air in the synagogue as everyone in the room stifled a giggle. Is your faith now different from the one you were raised with? Do you hate things even though your faith doesnt necessarily require you to?

Two of the voices sounded pretty familiar, but from the 10 minute convo. Finally the sad kid looks at the happy one and says What are you doing digging around in this filth? I haven't been that upset at her since she ate my computer when she was a puppy. What kind of mermaid are you? God can change hearts and lives for the better and the Bible illustrates that on my so many occasions. I hold this opinion for a couple of days myself until my faith gets the better of me after having visited him and it is my faith that brings me there, any of us who visit, because no one would go on their own desire for that mans company. Been beaten by one, raped by one, neglected by all, and lived with us a couple of times too. She is giddy with the romantic ideal of it all, and I suppose that would be nice except for the small fact that he is married, and still with his wife. I wanted to email you to tell you that I liked your diary and that I'd help with the html. I was so angry that I felt he response didn't even merit a reply.

So puffy, in fact, that I would make a very good zombie, with a little extra makeup. I resent the fact that you give prefrence to an employee who lies, manipulates, and is ineffectual at her job just because she has her nose so far up your ass you can't tell where she ends and you begin. But that doesn't stop the fact that I miss the feeling of intimacy in your diary, of knowing you in a raw and unedited way, as you are, with your mistakes as well as your perfection. If you're interested, give me a holler.. oh, and is that Shuggie Otis album any good? Bless you and Hang Tough in the Lord! I just give my tithes to the church that I am a member in; the one that I have been going to for almost all my life; the one which I know will use the money for good... I waited in the restroom for almost ten minutes. Kourtnee told the waitress that we were waiting for someone. That just freaked me out for the rest of the time I was there so I had to put that in this journal so someone could feel the same way that I did when I found out, that person is fine though, they just walked away from the hospital with cuts and bruises which is something to praise God for cause it coulda been way worst then it turned out to be. I just saw an ad for that Mothman Prophecies movie today, and someone had already mentioned it to me and how scary it was, so I went to look at the website tonight.

I hear his presence is even beginning to annoy Rob, just a little. Quizzes - A couple little quiz-dealies that I took. Sorry Other Shannon, you have a cool name, but you also have porno pics in your diary and that's just not my bag. I'm just 20 and still have my mom, but I still wonder what will I do w/out her. I probably would've run over the damn thing and left its remnants in the parking lot here at work. There are no redeeming qualities about that damn thing. And the Pi Kaps did much better, it seemed they got about 8-10 guys. Are you in Love? What is one thing you are grateful for today? I hole the minority opinion that he is to be an object of pity, the product of a terrible upbringing and environment having molded a boy into a man who has profound difficulty in the world. Today I am going down to see my relatives as per the events of the week. The sun was only out for about a half hour or so today, so I got back into it. Going to get to sleep earlier so I'll be up tomorow during the day and not completely screw up my sleep schedule... Search the body and theirs no hole.... I die every night, i wake up reanimated, and sometime during the day my mind's refreshed into what i used to know and maybe i'll look back, and a smile will be forced from my face of what could be a horrible life but is kept together with a strong will...