He's my source for hugs and Transmetropolitan and our gaydar test game. You'd think marriage was a cake and if they gave some to the gay people, there'd be none left that wasnt eaten or slobbered on for everyone else to eat. This isn't to say that I'm not talking to people, it's just saying that you can talk to me, but my chances of saying anything meaningful depend on whether you are saying anything meaningful to me. However, I think the chances of saying no to her would greatly increase to 100% if I never got drunk with her. Just to clear up any misinterpritation, last night... So in conclusion, I will never get drunk with Jenn. Alas, I have come to a conclusion... They just think that we're seriously STUPID, they're really good, and they have the right to boss us around. I really am going to miss this and them over the summer.

Please leave your e-mail, diary URL and your preferred form of Instant Messaging. Has great advice and lot of great ideas. Everything was going great between, except for I was in Pennsylvannia and he was in New Mexico. To ensure death, place both wrists in the toilet and flush to help purge out that unwanted blood. Fact: The correct way to slit one's wrists with the intent to die is NOT from side to side. It would have been better had I not been trying to avoid stepping on or running into the 5 billion tourists there with us. That's the only reason we went up there. Beer - Beer is the one reason for existing. As I was doing that, the sound stopped so I was all happy, and went back to bed. Is it his fault that I am this far? It is their fault that Im like this. I'm like wtf? I know that I can show him love, I know that the best part of my day is getting hugs and kisses from my kids when they wake up in the morning, and I know that I was strong enough, brave enough, to call Carol and set up that first appointment so I could stop being so scared. Its getting bad. Thanks for getting in touch with me about this.

A move, an insane ex, a jealous girlfriend, and on-going drama with the queer ex-best friend... Steph told me yesterday that he's going to try to go to Ottawa U Poli Sci. It made me not want to have kids and I know that's mean to say but honestablished is supposed to be a good thing right? I have millions of memeories and snippets in my head, I'm not going to bother going through everything I ever remember. Saying and doing things to me that make me feel like you want me around. Caity was like that to me when things went completely sour with Alex, and that in turn only made me want to have him more.

I loved your comment about the engineering student. My final in engineering today kicked my ass. How was he supposed to know that there was someone who cared that much that it would be the worst betrayal of all because she thought he was better than that? Perfection being the strongest one So for me For you to really know something or someone, you have to surrender. Many like to refer to themselves as someone who loves life and everything within it. His entry is here I'm supposed to fuck him with a strap-on one of these days. Shes supposed to come up and see me the last week of September. BUSH, President of the United States of America, do hereby proclaim September 11, 2003, as Patriot Day. I call upon the people of the United States to observe this day with appropriate ceremonies and activities, including remembrance services and candlelight vigils. Miller talks about the flag and dead soldiers and then attacks the press and Democrats who question the president's policy. Forget wearing any cute little shoes, unless you want to wear boots to your destination and then change into your cute shoes once you're inside and that's just a major hassle; isn't it? We lounged for a while on my giant lime green, two-person raft, then drank numerous beers/shots and then went to Olive Garden. I watched a few minutes longer and realized that there wasn't ANYBODY in the stands watching this event.

But my sister used to have parties and my father would pull the van into the back parking lot and we would load up with dozens and dozens of donuts for the evening's festivities. If you would like to pay for 6 months of Gold membership for r-y-l, click the button below. If you would like to pay for 6 months of SuperGold membership for r-y-l, click the button below. You can use the buttons below to buy a gift membership for almost-goth. Before she could change her mind she ran to the door and caught Dustin as he was climbing into his truck. One day when like I was walking home with my headphones on, sometimes last week, or the week before i think. Ok well I'm not done with answering my list yet but Lizzie wants on so I'm gonna let her till 4 when I'm gonna come on and chat with proco, and Z, yay! So I was generally privvy to every conversation she had with management, and it made me ill. I put up with it for a while because I still really enjoyed the magazine department, and I absolutely loved smiling through it all when she wanted me to be miserable.

She and the mountain are now one. I'll be working with the Museum of Fine Arts, which is right across the street from my school, and together we'll find the sloppy copy underneath the painting. Life is supposed to be my adventure, right? So I didnt I stayed up and continued to dwell on all the shit that I shouldnt dwell on. I want to have an adventure. I don't want to be second best all the time. I can handle it in increments; a little bit of second best here, a little bit of more than that there. Quizzes - A couple little quiz-dealies that I took. Biography - A little biography about myself. Sorry Other Shannon, you have a cool name, but you also have porno pics in your diary and that's just not my bag. Someone suggested putting it in the dishwasher to disinfect it, but I can't bring myself to do that for some reason.

Just to know that God loves you so much and it is unconditional, you can't ever leave it behind. It was spiritual and unconditional. All this especially so as i feel led to take on a position of spiritual seniority. And especially if you have another friend that wants to work there, too. However, i guess, there was a reason for that... so we can get closer to each other and be friends, right? But there was never a sequel to RTW. Suffice to say, there was a lot of jealousy and bitterness at the studio, and John got the worst of it. This morning John, my friend and musical collaborator for the past seven years, left for Maui, where he will be managing a studio in Lahaina. The idea is that once he gets settled at the studio, John and I will be able to collaborate on songwriting via the miracles of e-mail and mp3s. I'm not going to have the house destroyed by a little munchkin-dog on a rampage. Well, thanks for hanging out with me here over the past few years, months, days or even just a few minutes. Hey... thanks for the birthday note.

Knowing that she's single and probably lonesome on occasion, I decided the topic that suited her best is masturbation. I decided to go out to dinner. Before I had this diary, I only spent a half hour a day and that was mainly to check on stocks, tennis and news. But that day during science they had to be partners, and honest they were not getting along, and attracting a great amount of attention to themselve, it was seriously getting creepy. And it's not that I don't, I just don't really think that we are to a great extent, anymore. That, combined with my recent discovery of Janet Evanovich as well as that I'm getting a little overdosed on my typical girly angst novels made me pick this book up.

Cause I've been working so hard. If your internet's not working at this stupid time of the morning, go back to bed for a couple of hours and try again later. Anyway I have to go now so I can meet Jen and Allie for Chinafood! So, I had to work on a project today at the library, so anyway, I had to go home and get my card so I could check out some books. Monday morning I have an appointment with the psychiatrist again about my meds I wonder what she will say? Also this is my diary and if you don't like what you read, then I suggest you move on to another diary. I'm glad you requested; I got to see a whole different perspective from the life of another and realized I'm not the only one who's psychotic. Rachel's Rating: {8/10} - These are always hard to do, because rating your diary means your WHOLE diary, and not just your content. Always trickling through the cylce of happiness and depression. However, I would just like to say in my defense that our instructor isn't asking us to DO anything with the readings, so when faced with the choice of grading papers or doing my reading, what do you think I am going to pick? That means not only do I have to find my own way to the appointment tomorrow, but it means that my birth coach won't be there for one of the more important events. That means not only redoing pictures, but captions, quote boxes, possibly page layouts, and other crap. Since the teachers waited so long to place our pages cause they were fine to start with, all of our pictures have been used now. Why do people have to be such assholes and then make me look like a bitch for pointing it out? Dont schedule so many people if you cant spend time with them.

Everyone always believes the girl. But hey, I was the one with the hot dog, so I wasn't really caring about anyone/thing else at that point. Then I had a meeting with the new members from 4-5, then I took a two hour nap, and at 7 I had exec. In that moment, just when youre feeling so truly granola with the dirt and the sweat and your pack full of gear, you look down and notice that your left hand is rockin the biggest piece of spice there ever was. And all children should be interred with the parents.