Mary Thanks for being so smart and funny and helpful. Thanks for being you. Thanks for participating in my lil' chocolate survey! Are you into minimalism or is it just a new template in progress? Now this wasn't fair simply because Jewelx was born in December, and her sister being born in May. In moments where it's all literally too much just remember the people you will leave behind and the torture that they will endure having lost you. Well, they are replacing my sidewalk... among other things.... and that is exactly what it sounds like... the crushing of silverware..... of course, by the time I reached full conciousness, they were done. I thought about it, and I said that I really wasn't sure, and I thought about it some more, and I said that I'd prefer to know, if she was willing to tell me. I'll let you go now that I've found a way to keep, somehow, more than a broken vow. Like 10x more than Dan did.

Has one of my fave poems of all time, is insane and likes cheese! Jen offered to do it for me, and in the meantime, we convinced her to ask Don one more time if she could go... My mom was happy, obviously & offered to buy us all something of our choosing with the lucky money. And that's the reason why they are planning on taking a lil family trip this weekend, while ignoring my begging and pleading of leaving me home alone so I can resume being crazy-busy.

I haven't really written for days. I just don't know when to give up and when I fall hard, I really fall hard. Hobo Knives Don't Even Know What A Nassdar Is!?! It meant a lot to me that she said that because it really shows that I am feeling better, and that's always a good thing. Of course theres also a part of me that thinks if you dont like what I write then get the hell off my page. I really want to go, but with no sitter, it means paying for two people and Warren just isn't as intersted in the panels. I'm taking any and all suggestions for what I should scream out over the P.A. Have I ever mentioned that I have the greatest father in the entire space-time continuum? Looking back, I realize I really was pretty miserable for a while, and I can even sense the change thats taken place in only two short weeks. That was the only good part about that dream, and I got mad at the people in the actual dream for waking me from it. Haha, anyways, the gig will do you good. Once the interview is finished, it will be sent to the other members of the interview council, based on that vote, you will either be accepted or denied admittance. The Battle of the Spider - I have a new conspiracy theory about spiders.... Today I finally realised that it was about time I put a link on my old diary to this one so that people would know where I was. It occurred to me today that it is possible that I will never really be happy in my entire life.

We are the only ones who understand each others' Beatles obsession, so we talk about them constantly. The American university system does its students a disservice by encouraging them to forget each book or quarter as soon as it's past. As long as the student picks a theorist s/he understands, it usually results in a good paper. The connection we keep up through the phone and electronic means, well, it works for some things.

My Very Busy Friend tempted me to leave and go join him in Richmond. That my very presence is annoying to anyone with the bad luck to find themselves around me. Give me the chance, that one you promised to be mine, or has it vanished for all time? And the rest of the stuff that I'd like to write in here, well, I'm just gonna keep it to myself for right now... Be back later, and hopefully I can elaborate and write more, If i have the time/frame of mind to! Ever get a song off of Kazaa and it sounds fine for the first 10 seconds so you burn it to a cd only to find out later that the song is full of garble that sounds like aliens talking? If it wasn't for the fact that she was across the table and kept moving back I woulda slapped her. Most of the time anyway. My T said the other women she sees on topa stopped b/p totally but I think I may be resisting stopping totally due to my background of being forced to stop in the past by my parents, you know?

Im going to write this entry about my special friend, Michelle Reeves of Roswell, GA, who was tragically killed two days ago. Good news only on that blog, and Im going to write the ownership of that company to plead that they keep it posted indefinitely. Im not sure if it was the next day or later that night, but Michelle went for her swim all right. But me and Jase still had a reasonably good time and agreed that next time we should check the weather report before planning camping trips in Waterworld! I do know that the odds of seeing Michelle or Vince again are VERY slim, while I'll only see Jessica if I make the effort. I saw your entry about losing what you wrote and I know THAT feeling exactly, somehow I just lost a ton of e-mail... uuuggghHHHGGGHHH!! Did you ever notice how much self-talk is tinged with what we think might be the opinions of others? The Pharmacist and the others on the drug looked hopelessly for the vial, but it was not to be found. Shabibi & Mr White under the tree. My own experience has been that if you're blessed enough to have Jewish friends, you're pretty much guaranteed the chance to eat your weight in fresh and/or smoked salmon any time they include you in a family celebration. Have you ever asked a girl to comment on the size of your cock, in comparison to her other experiences?

Peter was going to be our driver. By the time they figured out what was going on with him and what he was doing, the damage had been done, and he's a little bit bow-legged. So at my young age I decided I knew how things were going to work. Tell me she didn't want to try the relationship and then tell me what had happened and that she actually did want to try when she got here? And that would be to the point where I don't want to try. I mean the whole point of this is - I can't see whats going to happen next.. and that scares me, I press my lips onto this mirror we call life and blow till my cheeks expand but I go nowhere, and neither does my breath.

Although I do believe that certain breeds of dog have the potential to be more agressive then others, like say, the pit bull is likely more of a danger then the toy poodle, I generally think that dog maulings are the result of poor parenting on the part of the dog owners. I was previously told that the RA on duty would be able to come downstairs and check me out, however, I was misinformed. He told me that I was the best intern they'd ever had, and that when I graduate and am looking for a job, I should talk to him. That just freaked me out for the rest of the time I was there so I had to put that in this journal so someone could feel the same way that I did when I found out, that person is fine though, they just walked away from the hospital with cuts and bruises which is something to praise God for cause it coulda been way worst then it turned out to be. And while all this was going on we heard a noise like someone was just constantly pressing on the carhorn of a car. And although we probably could have got on the internet there.... it just wouldn't have been right! I tend to overreact, as youve probably guessed by now. I put everything off until the last minute, but then always do a bang-up job when its done. I probably need to shorten some of those to a t-shirt sized phrase, but you get the idea.

Plus, he never tries to use them on her. I think he still is talking to girls on his phone... he takes it to work with him every night, and he doesn't call me, but his phone always goes dead... I've been talking to some people, and I'm going to expand my horizons into the fungii family of drugs, within a matter of weeks. I'm going to find out.

I went home, he called me, and broke up with me. I'm an ugly 12 year old with bad teeth and they think I'm going to be a groupie? This is going to be a tough one tomorrow. He had been very excited about decorating his tricycle this year, however, and had elaborate plans to mount flags on his handlebars, something he must have remembered from last years parade. If it comes on the radio, youre undoubtedly going to roll your eyes and groan, changing the station to something more hip, preferably whose call letters end in an X. I've made too many promises and changed too much to start cutting and burning myself again, or to lose hold on my life... I got super bored during math and decided to start doodling. My crush on Reeves dates back to 1989, people, when I went to The Palace to see Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure. Its feelings like these that grip my soul and wake me weep. The payroll office has lost my time sheet and has no record that I ever worked there. And believe me, these nitwits couldn't fight their way out of a paper bag.