She had been there for him through good times and hellishness. And yes, it would seem you've been getting into quite a bit of static lately. Lately, everything around me looks different, and its getting harder and harder to remember what is staying the same. With aging, its not so much that your body is falling apart and your life is getting shorter, what hurts more is how the disappointments begin to accumulate. What stinks about aging is that those people youve thought of as permanent institutions in your life begin to turn up missing. I thought of the time my parents came to visit me in Hawaii, and how much she loved it there. I thought of her in her pajamas, and in her work clothes, and in this outfit or that, sometimes with her hair done, sometimes in curlers.

What is appropriate? Friends were able to check up on what I was doing in my day to day life. I want to know what I'm getting, you know? I die every night, i wake up reanimated, and sometime during the day my mind's refreshed into what i used to know and maybe i'll look back, and a smile will be forced from my face of what could be a horrible life but is kept together with a strong will... You can't judge a book by it's cover or so i've been told, maybe i'm just living in a fantasy world where people act good to one another, but whats the fun in that? Search the body and theirs no hole.... I feel, so, so whats the word... ah yes annoyed with people who think that i am something that i'm not when i barely even know them. Lets also pretend that Juice had gone out the other day, and met a lovely lady, and they had a couple of moments doing the Disco Duck and things looked like they would turn out. We did some random stuff, and they kept sending us messages across the computer system. MILLER, who actually taught my HIS 102 class last semester, and he was the last class I had last time, and the first class this time.

Kourtnee explained to her why I was there. I haven't talked to you in a while, so I just thought I would drop a note. I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone. Even when you're wearing nothing but a towel around your waist and a hose up your butt, you'll still be cool as a cucumber. As a kicker, the stopped cars he was rushing around were not waiting for us but for a red light. Escobar's proclivity toward experimentation and the avant-garde had been blamed for the failure of their first album, and the band were fuming at his refusal to tone it down. Remember in 6th grade math, how you used to joke around and give me those bitchy looks, and I actually thought you were serious, and I was sad? I walked up, proudly asked, and the guy at the register looked absolutely crushed to tell me that they were out of the pumpkin spice. We walked into the restaurant and looked around for Jamie. He came by around 6, and we went out to dinner in Old Town. We were walking from the restaurant to the Irish pub, and who did we run into?

It's like these things are supposed to happen in magazines and goth stories not to one of your closest friends. I need to be more important than some things. I need sleep, though, and I feel sure that there will be plenty of updates to follow in the near future. And I WILL burn off all the calories if I have to stay there for three hours. Penny- You are always there for me, despite having completley different views we seem to get along great.

If you are a dove... So seriously I dont think any of you would miss him that much... right? Who would you like to be, dream self or real self? Again, where would you rather be living right now? Now- where's your Paypal button? My mother was pretty sick at that point and so I guess my father thought our mutual humiliation would really cheer her up, of course with the best intentions. There's just too much that time cannot erase. And, if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave. Do you have any pets?

I don't really remember anything from 9th grade, maybe because we were two losers without licenses so we couldn't really do anything and we were too cool to have our parents drive us anywhere. All I remember is getting into work one morning to be greeted with the news. Why don't you just permanently insert your tongue into your man's anus, because that's where it ends up most of the time anyway. I know it has for me *scowls* YOUR NOT COMING TO OTAFEST?! And so life sucks because it's just crap, and if you don't find meaning and...

For this, apparently I should go see Coleen. Plenty of times I have ranted here and to him about this shitty little theater and either not getting a movie or getting a kick ass one about two weeks after it was released. If you don't want to be sociable and would rather stay at home while your man goes out with his friends getting high and going to strip clubs, be my guestablished Just don't fucking lie and say you need to check with your man first. I want to know what I'm getting, you know? And I don't know how to fight it.

No damage to the LAE-mobile. I waited in the restroom for almost ten minutes. Jamie turned in my direction, scowled, and said very sharply, Its rude to sing at the table. Paula said that Jamie didnt like her. Then I ask him why he said something to Charles, and Allen but not me and he didnt say nothing. Maybe I'm just seeing lyrics everywhere, but either way you have kick arse musical taste... and eventually I will attempt to read your entire diary, but over 500 entries is a tad daunting at the moment... Close to the fear of war and the stars which have disappeared. I'm glad I don't have to be a sweet tart, in order to get people to like me. Below, I will examine the validity of Kelis' argument, and attempt to discern whether or not she does, in fact, wield such power.

So I'm going to write about a few of my favorite peeps on the web. This was actually my least favorite on Fat City for a long time, but the other day I woke up with it in my head and I suddenly just had to listen to it. My sister finds this out, tracks down this guy via the Internet and it turns out he's earning a decent living for himself as a photographer. Turns out, this guy was a complete and total ass. Speaking of which, this is killing me to say all of this about Dickhead, you know. I love the notion of someone caring about me, I just don't think it will ever be a reality... It's been awhile since I wrote one, but what do you think of the Misadventures of Monty & Dexter? Name three things you would change about this diary. And may the Angels of All things Good walk with You and Yours. Trust is a pretty fragile thing, but it's maybe not broken by exactly the things you might think. They're pretty intertwined, but I don't trust someone to stay with me, to not end a relationship, or to not want things that could damage the relationship. However, I do think a good father should be considered on equal footing as a good mother, especially if the child in question is male.

It really feels great meeting new people. My brain has felt frozen since I tried to get up yesterday. I skipped class last night, which I havent done since college. I think it was because I had sold my books to buy ramen noodles, and didnt want to share my shame with the whole class. I mean the whole point of this is - I can't see whats going to happen next.. and that scares me, I press my lips onto this mirror we call life and blow till my cheeks expand but I go nowhere, and neither does my breath. I was kind of weirded out though because tomorrow Kaitlyn, Gary and I are going on a haunted hay ride at 9:30. If any of you are familiar with the song, Wolf At The Door and had no idea what it meant, this is why. I'm not going to have the house destroyed by a little munchkin-dog on a rampage. But a lot of people were definitely like me and my roommate, primarily in the house to see them. When they were going in Erin and I were standing against the fence timing people and Cute Blonde kicked the fence and said in his cute joking tone 'Lazy ass freshmen!' and I go 'Who the fuck you calling lazy, you didn't shoot ONE arrow in that whole class!' cause he didn't, and he makes his cute face and goes 'Shhhhhhhhhh!!'. Christina and I did lines from 'Rejected' and I got a sammitch and talked to Cute Blonde while we were on the lunch line.