In other news, insomnia has been rocking my world lately. It's great that Harry actually has an email.. I knew with 100% certainty that I was being avoided for a reason but what reason? I told Em when I got home, then she informed me that her brother Nick and Zach wanted to drink with us last night, BUT NO, I was in Anderson. Not tormented, daily defeated by you, just when I thought I'd reached the bottom. I thought of her as Class Mom, when we went to the pumpkin farm for a Halloween field trip. I'm not sure when we're leaving yet though. The color is about the only thing I like about it, even though I don't exactly like it... I am not good with criticism, even though I try to be. I only procrastinate with things I don't care about, and try to perfect the things that I am proud of. If anything, the fact that she made what she thought was a big mistake and told me about it at the first possible opportunity reinforced my trust in her. It is your opportunity to escape your old and outdated subroutines. Harak recently taught our class grammar, which I thought is useless to teach to 11th graders. Softly, sweetly, a scent so faint that I thought I was hallucinating rose from the seam.

The eleventh is my sister's twenty fourth birthday-today is their 30th anniversary. Thanks to all in ptown for a fun couple of weeks home visiting and an awesome birthday celebration that spread out over several days. But of course I'm not going to tell you about all the interesting and uninteresting things that have filled up my week because it is 1:48 am and I am tired. I was going to tell you about the The Back Facial..... which was soooo incredible you just can't believe it....... but I'm going have to save that for later. And you never have to move.... they do all this while you're lying on the table.... and when they're finished you just get dressed and go. What the fuck did I do that was so wrong? ThenI didn't even get to talk to Nick after lunch today cuz the bell rang to early and Travis was there anyway. Might I add, that we were in such a rush that we forgot to get change for the parking meter!?!! She was waiting to meet someone, and we talked for a little while! And gambling can and frequently becomes an addiction - do we really need one more evil to resist? The Army pays for your bills, the house and food. I get to sleep over Nanna's this weekend while Patty is sleeping over my house.

A year ago, I would have been out enjoying the shops. But, Would you be my boyfriend? Where would you live? If you could live in any book, which one would you choose?

I Love You Father God..*Life Goes On*.. Have I ever mentioned that I have the greatest father in the entire space-time continuum? Austin was hosting the Austin City Limits music festival, so that just added to the fun time traffic situation. So, Austin. My girls - The girls I met in Austin in my church small group. We have to be in at 4:30, and he came in at 6 and let someone go. So he and I went and got a burger and laughed at how pissed off Natalie was going to be when he didn't come home to be with her on Valentines Day. Who's going to watch me take a nap? Now I just want to go somewhere where there's an actual beach and go swimming in the ocean. I mean the whole point of this is - I can't see whats going to happen next.. and that scares me, I press my lips onto this mirror we call life and blow till my cheeks expand but I go nowhere, and neither does my breath. And to prove it to you bitches that I'm serious about this, I want you to EMAIL ME if you think there's even the slightest chance you might want to go in on this with me.

A rather eccentric selection of songs, but all very spiffy to hear live. It was delightful, with a wonderful selection of a variety of things, and all of the things that a comics/gaming store ought to have: chairs for reading in, tables for gaming on, a message board for meeting gamers and trading tradables, and friendly knowledgable staff. Anyway, I didn't want to leave things so negative because most of the time I'm not that way. Tell me that she wanted to try the relationship, and act like nothing had happened until she got here? I walked up, proudly asked, and the guy at the register looked absolutely crushed to tell me that they were out of the pumpkin spice. How do you run out of the key ingredient to the single flavor you are pushing for the month of October? I didn't really think I crashed the server, but I was wondering. We commented on how this was the first time in our relationship that we had been really alone together and were overcome with relief. Jesus, I wish I could get the thoughts out of my mind, out of my soul, just out. He didn't really want an answer. I am not obsessed or anything, really!

I never would've been able to work last night if I'd had to, but just lying there knowing I had nothing to do, no responsibilities between then and, well, Thursday if I want, was enough to rejuvinate me just a little. I realized I really had nothing to talk about. I thought it would be grand to see the event and maybe call down to someone that I liked if they happened to pass, they'd have quite an experience in recognizing the voice of an old aquaintance coming from the top of a tree. Give me the chance, that one you promised to be mine, or has it vanished for all time? Here I am now, avoiding the rain by spending lunch hour in the office, talking to you. Jamie started talking to Kourtnee. The pain started on my upper arm, and went up to my neck. Got that Paul Simon song 'you're the one' caught in my head, which is a happy occurence, because I like Paul Simon and that song. That's just you.

It was most likely at Buffet King perhaps a couple of weeks ago. It was stupid. The flowers of rust and destruction. Your destiny is world destruction/domination. I woke up one day and found out that the world no longer worked in that orderly, properly way. Many things that went unsold are disgustedly dumped at the curb on a Sunday afternoon or evening. And never cross the open field, because of that one snake in the grass.......... Jamie looked at me and made a face that I didnt care for at all. I forgot to mention that last night we went to Cody's house - Like old times.

Thanks for being you. I'll let you have the rest of them, just for the heck of it. For the ends of being and ideal grace. We do so much, we run so quickly, the situation is difficult, and many people say, Dont just sit there, do something. Darren and I both dated the most popular girls at the time, obviously not at the same time. The stress of being a top athlete, model straight A student, and popular, leader-like teenager was too much for me to handle. I not only made a huge transition from elementary school to junior high, but also from being the shy, nerdy type, to the popular, smart but in a cool way kid. The later elementary years I can remember much more vividly.

A: Not a Scooby*, mate, sorry. I have not been feelin' like entertainin' lately with all that's been goin' on. Actually, that's a lie. But not so cute that he could just... hang about on the ketchup and I'd just sit there and take it. I need to get this shit with me and Gary moving if it's ever going to go anywhere and she's just a pain about it. Which one of you single, horny bitches is going with me? And then there was an extra panel wall sticking out of the regular wall in the living room with about 20 holes the size of big baseballs. After thinking about it awhile, I realized that if the Hawaiian studio venture works out for John, I wont be losing a friend as much as Ill be gaining a studio. She has wrung all the cum out of the men - there seem to be about 7 or 8? Apparently there is one whole wall of the men's room that is a waterfall.... and that's the urinal!

This is when I found out that, much to my horror, I am registered as a Republican. I'll let you go now that I've found a way to keep, somehow, more than a broken vow. I've already had my year-anniversiary, so this isn't really a big deal, except that it highlights the fact that I left out at least 165 days. But that doesn't stop the fact that I miss the feeling of intimacy in your diary, of knowing you in a raw and unedited way, as you are, with your mistakes as well as your perfection. Ah for it to be blindingly obvious that I have no standing and am nothing in the eyes of my boss. She had Madonna's Music cranked up really loud, so she didn't know I was in the room. I saw CC there and he really doesn't like Zach, or me hanging out with Zach. If the world really is your oyster, where exactly is the pearl? Because the Egyptian calendar is quite different from the Julian one we use today the dates in my calendar are an approximation and other sources may be a day or two different.