After I realized I was drunk, and not likely to stumble onto a good conversation at damn near five in the morning, I trudged back to the Hampton to once again sleep under the writing desk. After that it was plunk down in a comfy chair time to continue talking to Jamie, and Squeak. She says I should not allow Mike to continue in his slackass ways. The first thing I said was that I think there's a European version for guys that shouldn't be too hard to get. I know I said I was closing this diary, but I decided to leave you all with this. I know that the best way to ruin an amazing friendship is to tell them that you're in love with them; the last thing I wanted in the world was to ruin the relationship I had with him. You may think that I should just be the bigger person and call him or e-mail him, but it wasn't just some old teacher I had in high school. I guess the reason that I wasn't awed by it in the end is that there was so much build up for it and so much said about it regarding how moving it was and until I wrote my review, I honestly hadn't run into anyone who didn't say they were moved beyond words. I was hoping that I could get the link to work but I obviously screwed something up so I guess you'll have to cut and paste. I always had the feeling that he was going to turn on me one day and that I was being set up for the kill, but the moment never came. And then getting her to arrange a time with Lynn, so that I can tell her just with me and Tal there. If I give away all my money, as Ive done all through my life, then Im the one with a financial problem and my money isnt enough to solve everyones problem either. Then I began to tell them about David Maze and how his spirit had literally hit me across the back of my head. I hear lots and lots of bird sounds when the chicks hatch.... then they're off.... and I don't think about them again until the next year.