Don't just say you will become yourself, who will you be in the future? Let it be noted that the girl is so professional, and your dignity is so very respected that you'll never be embarrassed. Finally, she gets you in a semi-fetal position on your side, does some deft movements under the towel, and the part of your body that's designed to 'push' definitely loses that particular argument. I wouldn't say things are peachy what with the giant hose in your bum, but you know, there are worst ways to spend an hour. The fact that she realized how she felt about me clearly enough to stop before things went any further with him means a lot to me. That combined with all the shit from the past few weeks is really taking a toll on me. I just feel that the sex we have is less special. I've come to realize that some do and even some girls do but live and learn you know? I dont have that anymore and I really miss it. I just wanted to say hi and see how you were doing and tell you how much I miss you. If you turn to page five, you'll see a very interesting point being made. And if you are, what is your business with my brother? Too many people I know and are close to have access to it, and that last episode can be explained if you check out the last few entries of PRCinderella.

Lace insisted to go into the same toilet cubicle with me. I'm finding that I agree, somewhat, with the existentialist writers but, and this is part of what causes the hurting in my brain, the writing is, well, quite non-logical in its conclusions. That was the only good part about that dream, and I got mad at the people in the actual dream for waking me from it. Ah for it to be blindingly obvious that I have no standing and am nothing in the eyes of my boss. I would rather be poor and have someone to hold that I love than marry a billionaire I have no passion for. Who would you like to be, dream self or real self? By the way, if you have a quiz that you don't see on this page and you think I'll like it, drop the URL in my guestbook! It brought me many places that I would probably never get to see if I were alone, but most importantly, it led me to the man I was searching for my whole life. My marriage taught me many things though; ironically it showed me that I was able to be independent and I was a lot stronger than I ever gave myself credit for being. Tell me she didn't want to try the relationship and then tell me what had happened and that she actually did want to try when she got here? I wish I had known then that I was causing most of the depression I felt by eating all that stuff.

I offered to call in sick and take her child. What should the Fiery One and I name them? Thus, it should come as no suprise to anyone that I dressed up for work today. On one hand, Dan has a point: Why kill a beautiful living thing just to use it as a decoration in your living room for two or three weeks? It's a beautiful white house with my cool purple room with flowers on the walls that I painted myself. That's the only reason we went up there. After a short stint around town today, I settled in to listen to Y100 in an attempt to win tickets to the Radiohead Sonic Session. I took over Karen's Music Lady duties and manned the stereo, but that's about it. This time, I was Music Lady for the entire show, DJing the music in a tiny little room on the side of the gym. The New York Times has a good article on this and what kind of justices Bush wants for the Supreme Court. You could feel this huge intake of air in the synagogue as everyone in the room stifled a giggle. Are you sure your political party is the same as your religious icon's would be? A friend from work who turned out to be a devout Christian revealed the origins of her religious devotion to me while on a walk along the beach. Ive been meaning to ask youcould u help me out by clarifying a few verses from the OT? Maybe I see myself for what I really am, and the rest of the world is looking in on a veiled room.

I've jumped between about three jobs since I've been with Russ, I never knew it felt so unsettling for the other person... And if you would like to know more about the music *I* enjoy, see my playlist. You know, from Breakin' 2? But on the plus side, we beat Jono and the other kamikaze boys! Witnessing a Fistfight on a train and other bizarreness on a journey up to Y's! Now, I could just about handle this until today - when my mum decided to buy him a 'special treat'. Im going to write this entry about my special friend, Michelle Reeves of Roswell, GA, who was tragically killed two days ago. This is a short blog of things in her day that brought her joy. The fact that she realized how she felt about me clearly enough to stop before things went any further with him means a lot to me.

You won't find me following any diet that tells me I have to exclude part of the food pyramid in order to lose weight. Yeah, sorry I have to be all legal on you here, but unless otherwise indicated, all that you read here is mine, mine, mine. Something I had to remind myself of lately, after a 1000 entries or so on here I took a hiatus but now I am back. Hello, you were undoubtably sent this email because the admin of this site, myself, has discovered your email address online, and was led to believe you had a sudden or eternal interest in poetry or writing or more specifically the likes of ee cummings, and I can't forget to mention Pablo Picasso. I saw this episode of Faking It, and they were trying to create a male model out of your basic... Was this a little TMI? That was my big awwwwwwwww moment, and I could feel that little sting that tells you tears are close.

Every 14 seconds, an estimated 6,000 people between 14 and 25 are infected with HIV/AIDS. And why is that? Why do I always fall for guys that i can't have. And why do I always sell myself short? The reason why I think he did it was because I was in the state between awake and asleep when I felt something on my nose and lips. All I felt I had left was Sarah, the long time girlfriend that was always by my side. Someone tried to explain to me that copy editors and fact checkers get shit and just have to take it. Oh oh oh I have to say this too cause it freaked me out when I found out what the deal was. I can't wait until things get better.

So, I decided to copy and paste the listings that Linda sends us each day. The following year I joined the middle school band and started down a road that would shape my life for years to come. I'm not supossed to know that my mother is organizing the party and setting it up on Saturday. I find myself pausing sometimes and pinching myself, finding it hard to believe that this life I'm living is actually mine. I agree with 100 fuckin' percent, it doesnt get any better than Rancid... we have that in common, I love Rancid myself.... it's hard to find a more honest group of punks yanno? I can respect that... keep stopping by and dropping lines...~Hugs~ I'm off to nurse my bangs, bruises, bumps and various injuries from the pits yesterday! So why and I still here? But the very next day after he got home, we turned around and drove to Wichita, KS for a wedding reception for a wedding that happened about a year ago. Another friend of the boyfriends was having a wedding reception. I hate it when people bottle up their real emotions and instead presume a fake, unrealistic front that everyone knows is not the real them. I hope this twointheam fairy is visiting everyone else with happy dust.. Are you sick of organized religion in the altogether? Because it's all in the playing.

I knew he had to go down and try to get some work done on the truck. Won't you let me down? They even have high-speed Internet access over there so I could have taken el laptop-o and done some el porno's. I've never done it either, although I've seen it done on the food network a few years ago - when I had access to cable. It's strange how I move the furniture whenever I am undergoing a change in my life or personality, or when I sense a change coming... It looks great - way better than it ever did when I lived there - but it makes me feel sort of like I never lived there at all. But it will never come again. Although I loved my friend Peter greatly, there is no way I could marry him. Never once told him I loved him, well only in Russian and he doesn't speak it. Jen offered to do it for me, and in the meantime, we convinced her to ask Don one more time if she could go... In the process, soap scum collected around every little bump on Dragonman & never did come off. I get around. The first time, I knew the answer to their little trivia question and called atleast 30 times.

For $50,000: Would you dip your hand in a bowl full of pills, not knowing what any are, and take whatever you pull out? Or would you go out laughing, spurting blood everywhere? Law and Ethics don't matter here, for this one moment you can execute anyone you like... If you had the power and ability to do one thing, you can have access to every super power in history or ledgend; what would you do? Who would you like to be, dream self or real self? Buffy DVDs are strewn around the room, and it would be very easy to get a sense of the two girls who live here with a thirty second glance at our living room.

In crazy news Malena IMd me today to ask what my address was because she saw something that reminded her of me and bought it. I was a bit nerdy and had a hard time fitting in with the more popular peers that I tried so hard to belong with. This was my first time, and it really took the edge off things, without making me feel groggy or drugged. My first real boyfriend had just broken up with me. My friend Denny, who has been with her boyfriend seven years, is always telling me how the amazing the sex continues to be for her, and regularly. Until my boyfriend and I went back to using condoms, just in case.