Then we decided to drive down the coast on our way back and stay at The Shamrock Lodgettes. It's becoming a bit of a problem, especially since the damn thing is worth 25% of my grade for the class, and it's due tomorrow at 5pm. I'm 28, tired of working and avoiding the real world by returning to school to seek advanced degrees. I chose the viola because in 6th grade, there was a day at school where we chose if we wanted to join the band or the orchestra. At the new middle school I made some friends and learned how to wear makeup and dress like a normal girl. I don't know how to interact with people that way. If you know how to deal with me, what's there to be scared of? Driving, knowing that no matter how carefully you drive around that next curve you COULD wind up down an embankment with a tree jammed through your head. That you have a two headed penis? Leaving the cinema, I headed along Chapel Street towards Pran Central and Safeway to grab a few things before heading home. He walked me home the other night- safety precaution, but he says and does things that imply that he is perhaps more interested than just being a buddy.

So we trekked to the west side via cambus and then a shortcut walk. Then there was the poem. Id been out of the musical mainstream for more than ten years when we recorded RTW, and it was good to have someone non-judgmental with a huge reservoir of knowledge to draw from - someone whose influences were uncannily similar to mine. I was proud of the selection that was available, as it was mainly comprised of the smaller-press versions of the mainstream magazine. The bizarre part is that both of our friends are named Kim. I'd like to think that how he acts now is how he'd act when he's with me... Sure, he holds a grudge and hits batters with the ball, but still - when you're a baseball-playin' studmuffin, who cares? How can President Bush give speeches promoting democracy and expect to be taken seriously when people at home and abroad with the current election scandals in Florida, a puppet government in Iraq, and receiving an endorsement from Iran because they feel he would be more indifferent to human rights violations than John Kerry. And all children should be interred with the parents. What scares you that most people dont know? We turned off onto Offa's Dyke Path, and the weather changed suddenly - we were pelted with icy winds and stinging rain from the northwestablished But we survived it, and conditions soon became more benign, as we came down from the heights back into Presteigne. It makes a change from the April showers and high winds earlier in our stay.

I was bored this afternoon, sorry I freaked you out. I'd like to take a moment and say that we have started the other business officially. I fell asleep at about 5am and then the pain woke me up at about 8:30am. What about Love at first sight? Your entry about yoru father and mother nearly made me cry. Any debts owed to God should paid by your deeds and your intent. When was your first bi experience and who was the lucky person and how did it come about? Was your first time what you expected or was it disappointing? How old was the girl and how did it come about? You know, the one about her HAVING A BOYFRIEND. It was her, my grandmother, my aunt and her boyfriend/my step uncle. Would you be my boyfriend? Law and Ethics don't matter here, for this one moment you can execute anyone you like... How would you like to die?

He never ceases to sexually frustrate me. Do you know how to pump your own gas? Apparently, I know exactly how to twist people around my little finger, and I know that I do it too. Personality-wise, for two people who are supposedly speaking different languages, I spend a lot of time feeling like she understands me pretty well. I think about him a lot and hope hes happy and well. She did it over and over, with the same ones or different ones, I'm not sure. But the fact is that my diary brings out a totally different person. Equally amusing is the fact that you decide to listen to your neighbors who might I remind you are a pair of cynical, old, full of spite husband and wife who have never amounted to anything.

Oh well. Is it bogus? I feel guilty, but is it HIS fault? I feel guilty because I didn't organize all the garbage my careless building mates ruthlessly scattered near the cans. Why didn't Lisa and I go to yoga together on Sun morn? I let the world wash over me, and just accept whats being done to me.

Maybe I won't even do anything and I'll just go to Bry's and talk. If anyone asked me what I was up to or anything, I'd have had something to talk about. I told Mom that it was on my mind - Mom may have said something about that to her after I left. However, I believe the most difficult thing in life is to hate something and love hating it. But it says in Acts that you are forgiven in repentance? On another note, I'm split in half on the whole stopping smoking thing. I won't definitely come back, but maybe to check in on you every once in awhile. I'm glad you requested; I got to see a whole different perspective from the life of another and realized I'm not the only one who's psychotic. I think you should make the extras allllll one page and then all of the extra links will be gone and your layout will look much better. I think you should narrow that down. I actually cried in the theater..... why can't you be here?

So sorry again for the confused. I had been a bit worried because I drew a bird in Paint and tried uploading to the profile section via bmp which I have since learned is a no-no. Actually, I emailed Gossy a few days ago and got the form letter he's been sending out along with a link to groups. A few days ago, in a Swedish discussion TV program, I saw clips of the Doctor Phil show episode, where he and a war loving audience, trash the expression of anti-war activists. Adam and I had a new job discussion in Personal and Business Law today, and we are looking into KMart. All the card skools in every corner of the earth - and all that's in between - are they just a game of chance? This was foretold and all that goes along with it. Well, then, can I withdraw cash from you, the teller, and then can you slide it under the little partition to me, and THEN can I purchase my cashier's check?

Stupid burner annoying the hell outta me. When and where was the last time you pigged out? Anyway, we finally got the stupid tree. I finally have an internet connection! Anyway.... tomorrow, we'll be at The Weasku Inn... hoping to get an internet connection.... cross your fingers!!!

Eileen, Chelsea and I chilled on the concrete dock by the creek. Wendy's was closed so we just went to the Park at Newton's Creek. Just to be at the table, enjoying the not knowing what cards you'll be dealt next? But at the same time not so welcome people join the table - all the above may not be welcome - there are enemies - jealousy - greed - evil - or someone you love, but doesn't love you back.

Cos last week i just went to visit him becos of gastric, no way am i going back to get scolding from him. He suffered so much for us sooo i guess i should learn more about Him and this time, put into actions the words that i always say. I feel like either time is going to slowly erase what happend between us so that it becomes irrelevent, otherwise, we're going to end up meeting again because truly, it doesn't feel finished. I think it is the first day that I haven't seen him at all since we started going out. After an hour or so the meds started to work but it didn't help much. A guy he used to work with is the hiring manager at some company and says he can really use him, but he has to wait until the VP comes back from vacation, which won't be until January.